polishing is okay, but we cannot fit it on the page.â
After a few moments of stalemate, I agreed to redo the edits. As the editor walked away I opened the original story. Without making any changes, I sent it back to him, the word-for-word originalâthe same way it ran in the next dayâs paper.
Nobody said a thing.
T he next week I showed up at work, and Harry, my anti-foreigner, anti-Shanghainese, anti-Taiwanese deskmate, was gone. My new neighbor introduced himself as Wangââjust Wang is okay,â he said. (For newcomers to China, keeping track of people surnamed Wang can be daunting.) Wang was the same age as me, thin and bespectacled, with immaculate hair parted to the side. He was a Communist Party member, he told me, not because he was necessarily interested in politics or the Party but because it was key for career success. Membership mostly entailed spending the odd weekend away at Party conferences, where officials would drone on about policy and ideology for hours. Wang covered natural resources for the paper, and he was good at his job. He worked the phones all day and filed clean copy.
One Friday, a few weeks later, I noticed Wang was proofreading the opinion pages I had edited. Initially I took this as a slight to my work, and then I became nervous that my bosses had figured out that I didnât actually read the proofs.
âWhy do they need you to work as a proofreader anyway?â I asked. âYouâre already working all day as a reporter.â
âThey need me to look for political mistakes.â
âPolitical mistakes? Like what?â
âLike Taiwan and Hong Kong, for example. Or another example: the other day there was a reference to South Korea as âKorea.â That is not acceptable. Because there are two Koreas, South Korea and North Korea, and one Korea cannot represent both Koreas. If we have that, North Korea will call China Daily and be very upset with us.â
âI see.â
I pulled out a proofreading sheet and found a story that mentioned Taiwan as a Chinese province.
âHey, I found a political mistake here. Shouldnât this say âChina and Taiwan,â which are two separate countries ? Like North and South Korea?â
Silence. Wang grabbed the paper and held the sheet of paper inches from his glasses.
âIâm joking,â I said.
Wang just laughed nervously.
I was much better suited to the day shift, and my mood perked up accordingly. Working from ten to six improved my social life, but I still wasnât finding much in the way of freelance success. I wrote a piece about Chinaâs stock market for a Canadian business magazine, and I was commissioned a few stories for local English magazines. I pitched North American newspapers and magazines regularly but without much luck. Many e-mails were ignored completelyâso frequently, in fact, that I sometimes e-mailed myself just to confirm my messages were actually going through.
I often met foreign journalists who worked for well-known publicationsâthe New York Times , the Wall Street Journal , Time , Newsweek , and others. Beijing was stocked with foreign correspondents, and I felt grossly inadequate whenever I socialized with them, imagining them laughing at my career misfortune whenever I went to the bar to order a drink.
At night, lying in bed on hot summer nightsâone year away from the OlympicsâI would ruminate about my station in life. I wanted to be writing for marquee magazines, to some day walk into a bookstore and see a book Iâd written. But I had no idea how to get there. And when I looked around the office at some of my colleaguesâbeat-down, dreary-eyed, wearing the same outfit theyâd worn all weekâit was clear that China Daily was not a path to great success.
O ne day in late August, Ms. Feng approached my desk and told me I would be sent with a team of Chinese reporters to cover the first World Economic