doesnât show it. âSee you, Little Red!â he says, all smiles, as heâs pushed into the back of the police car.
The policeman closes the door and, adjusting his belt, turns back to us. His holstered gun looks like a block of metal on his hip. Like the Taylorsâ, Iâm pretty sure itâs a Glock.
âYou two need a ride?â he says, sounding bored now at the prospect.
âSheâs called her dad,â I say.
âLetâs be careful who we drive with next time,â he says.
âYou mean her dad?â I say.
The policeman gives me a look. He shakes his head at Gretchen as if he pities who sheâs stuck with. He turns and gets in the cruiser. His partner already has it started up and the two of them pull away. In the backseat Twom looks like heâs whistling again.
And then theyâre gone.
The only thing that could make the evening more of a disaster now would be getting mugged, which is sort of what happens next.
Gretchen has turned, moved to the car, and is resting now against the rear bumper. I join her. We sit there for a while in silence.
âYou know, Iâve been asking around,â Gretchen says, not really looking at me.
âAbout what?â I say.
âYou,â Gretchen says softly.
âReally. What have you found out?â Iâm not so much curious as I am alarmed.
âPeople donât know what to make of you. Some people think youâre kind of cool. Most of them arenât sure. A couple of girls think youâre going to come to school someday and shoot people.â
âIâm not,â I say.
âI know,â says Gretchen. âStill ⦠I feel like I should worry about you, Billy.â
I know that her eyes are green and in the light of the street lamp I can see, or maybe itâs just that I can imagine, a single tear running down her cheek.
Itâs just not fair.
Norepinephrine, phenylhydrazine, and dopamine, which act like amphetamines, hit my brainâs pleasure center like a locomotive. My pupils dilate. My heart pumps faster. The chemical oxytocin floods my body, creating intense feelings of caring, attraction, and warmth. Physical contact produces endorphins and continued high doses of oxytocin. These chemicals are all natural opiates that create a druglike dependency.
Translation?
I am so screwed.
I lean toward her. Closing her eyes, Gretchen leans ever so slightly toward me. I kiss her. Her lips are the softest thing Iâve ever felt. I lean into her and her body presses against me. I gasp and almost pull away as her fingertips caress my right cheek.
âSorry,â says Gretchen quickly.
âNo,â I say. âItâs okay.â
And it is. Her touch is delicate and beneath it, as if under a special wavelength of light, I feel my cheek taking on vivid hues. We kiss again. Her tongue touches my lipsâ
And then a car horn blares and blows the moment right out of the water. We move away from each other, startled. We squint at the headlights of the van as it pulls up and then moves to the side of us. The passenger-side window glides down.
âLetâs go, you two!â calls Gretchenâs dad. He sounds like a cheerful friar whoâs come to deliver a chastity belt.
I wonder if Gretchenâs going to get into the front but she doesnât. She climbs into the backseat with me. As we pull away, I turn and look over my shoulder. The Caddy looks like a tired beggar, alone under the streetlight. I wonder if anyone thought to lock it.
Even though heâs been pulled out of his house at, like, ten-thirty at night, and even though heâs seen me lip-locked with his daughter, Dr. Quinn doesnât seem especially upset. âWell. Other than the police, did you two have a pleasant evening?â He glances in the rearview to see if anyone is smiling at his joke. Or maybe, like Twom, heâs waiting to see if Iâm going to jump his âLittle