diapers?â I was so mad I forgot to cover JDâs ears, and felt bad.
âMan, I just bought him that Nike outfit.â
âGood, now buy some goddamn diapers so he can stop shittinâ it.â I remembered to plug his ears that time.
âLet me go call my momma, sheâll give you some.â
âYeah, Iâm gonna let you get to that.â
âWhatever. Just stay here, and donât go into none of these other rooms.â
Soon as Pie left, Fashad started laughing.
âWhat are you laughing about?â I said innocently, trying to sound like a sweet little girl. Probably looking like a damn fool, seeing as how I had just cussed out his friend, and was holding a baby.
âHave you not noticed that there are no women here?â
âNo,â I said, apologetically, like I cared. I hadnât noticed that it was just a place for niggas to chill, but it wouldnât have mattered. My baby needed some diapers. I would have walked into a ho house.
âThere arenât any women here besides me?â I asked, still trying to sound like a lost little girl.
âNope, and you havenât noticed?â
I shook my head no. âThis my first time being here.â
âAnd why you think all them niggas was trying to keep you out?â
âI donât know. I guess because yâall donât like girls in here.â
âBut you came in anyway,â said Fashad, sounding like the state prosecutor.
âOnly because my baby needs Pampers,â I said. âIâm not coming back. I donât have time to worry about what yâall be doing in yâallâs little clique, I just came for some diapers.â
He laughed, then stuck out his hand for me to shake. He told me his name was Fashad, but I thought he said Façade.
âNice to meet you, Façade,â I said, and I gently reached out my hand for him to take like I was some rich old white lady from the South during slavery.
âItâs Fashad,â he said.
I apologized, and he told me, âLots of people make that mistake.â He said he even called himself Façade until he was old enough to know that that wasnât his name.
Pie came back in and said he didnât have no money for Pampers. Said his momma wasnât going to pay because everyone knew I was hot and JD didnât have his daddyâs eyes. He said she said it couldnât be no grandbaby of hers unless it had eyes as fine as her sonâs. His words were matter-of-fact, his eyes were cold and heartless. I was struggling and he didnât care. Thatâs when it hit me. Pie never wanted me, he only wanted people to know he could have me. I ran out of that place, hurt and ashamed. The next day Fashad called and asked me out. That was the beginning of the life I live now. We moved in together the next week, and Ihavenât had to work or worry since. You for damn sure donât need a broke-down Hyundai when you got a brand-new Mercedes.
Pie heard about Fashad asking me out and thought Fashad was just kidding around. Fashad never really took girls out, so Pie thought that we were both just playing a joke on him. When he found out me and Fashad were serious, he had a fit. He kept calling Fashad a âtwin,â and when I asked him why, he said it was a nickname, because Fashad was two different people that looked just alike. I asked Fashad about the nickname and he said thatâs what everybody at Ralphâs called each other, said everyone at Ralphâs was a twin, just like every brotha is a nigga. Pie did everything he could to come between me and Fashad, but I ainât pay no attention to him. To Pie I was just a possession. He wanted me to belong to him and not Fashad.
Pie turned out to be gay. I donât have no problem with fags. My best friend is a fag, and I donât care what they do. But other people be gettinâ all worked up about that shit. Fashad stopped going to