true just the same. I want to do something good for somebody else.â A trace of the shadow returned. âWhile thereâs still time.â
âAlex, hearing you say those words is like a knife in my heart.â
Instead of replying, Alex slid over a yellow legal pad, pulled his pen from his pocket, and started making notes. âWeâll make this your command center.â
âWhat, here?â
âWhere did you plan on having it? You canât use the bank, thatâs for certain.â
âI hadnât thought that far.â
âWell, youâd better. Theyâre not going to be very pleased to hear their manager start warning about a financial collapse.â
âAssistant manager.â But his mind was trapped by the realization that going public meant exactly that. âThey wonât be pleased at all.â
ââCourse, weâre not planning on calling them up and telling them what youâre doing in your spare time.â He made rapid notes. âAnybody who wants to hear what youâve got to say can call or fax us here.â
Each word Alex spoke made the whole affair that much more real. âI feel awful.â
âYou look awful. You look like you need to go lie down before your third big sign comes true tonight.â Which was good for another chuckle. âBoy, did you ever get it coming and going.â
âAlex, Iâd do anythingââ
âJust stop right there. You didnât cause this illness.â Alex raised his eyes from his note taking. âDid it ever occur to you that your God might have suggested these signs to you?â
Buddy did not know which was more startling, the thought itself, or to hear it come from his brother. âHeâs your God too.â
âHe might have known youâd need something like this to get you up and moving. If itâs my time, well . . .â Alex stopped, momentarily silenced by the rising shadows. He pushed them back down and focused once more on his brother. âI want to help you do this, Buddy.â
âThen you will.â Buddy forced himself to his feet. âIâd better be going.â
âCall me tonight when you get back.â Another smile. âTell me how it went.â
âAll right.â
âBuddy.â Alex waited until Buddy turned back around to say quietly, âThere was something else I was thinking while you were telling me about this message. I was thinking that God couldnât have chosen a better man.â
â| | ELEVEN | |â
Buddy arrived at the church still numbed by his brotherâs news. He had left Molly teary eyed and heart-sore, trying hard to put on a brave face for him. But she did not need to be brave. Buddy was too worried to care much one way or the other.
He entered the churchâs main conference room to an argument. One so unexpected that it almost shocked Buddy from his cloud. The churchâs two pastors were squared off at the front of the room. The others present clustered in silent little groups, staring in confusion.
Pastor Allen demanded of his assistant pastor, âYou are certain this is a good idea?â
âYes, I am. More than that, I feel it is divinely inspired.â
Pastor Allen shook his head, clearly irritated. âI have to tell you, Clarke, I think this is unwise. Very unwise.â
âYou werenât there,â Clarke Owen responded. He held to his normal, quiet tone, but he was equally firm. Equally unbending. âYou didnât witness what I did.â
âWe have too full an agenda already, as you well know.â Pastor Allen was a tremendously dynamic man in his mid-thirties, with an athleteâs taut build and a movie starâs even features. He dearly loved the Lord and approached the pulpit as he would a goal-line drive. He was definitely the force behind the churchâs revival and growth. He was also accustomed to subservience from