hurry to put their arms around him and help him into the building. I hop from the window and head to the door.
âWhere are you going?â Rob asks.
âDid you see him? Somethingâs not right. Iâm going to find out whatâs going on.â
âBut you donât know Devin.â
âSo?â I spit, exasperated and tired of Robâs indifference. Iâm angry now, at Rob but also at myself. Maybe I could have done something, somehow. Maybe thatâs what Dad meant. âWho cares if I donât know him? Iâm here, and he got shot at, and weâre obviously in danger, so Iâm going to figure out what the hell happened. I didnât ask you to come along, so donât give me any of your shit, Rob.â
Without waiting for an answer, I open the door and head into the hallway. A few others have done the same, and when I look back, Jo and Rob are following at a discreet distance, appearing chastised. Iâm huffing air but manage to be secretly pleased; this anger feels new and good to me. A channel for my helplessness. I hurry down a couple floors to the lounge near the entrance where some of the students have been hanging out near the fireplace and watching movies and playing pool and foosball. Devinâs been placed on a couch in a seat of honor, and heâs slouched, in clear pain, clutching his ribs.
âAre you okay?â This from Mindy, an RA. I know Mindyâsheâs in my calc class and likes to complain about her 3.9 GPA. Sheâs also smitten with Devin, talks about him all the time, which is mainly how I know of him. âThey let you go already? You donât look so good.â
I peer in and frown. Devin doesnât look swollen, as I had initially thought. He looks . . . older. Like a bruised version of himself ten years from now. His jawline is full, stretching out from under the bandage. His torso and arms seem elongated; even his hair appears longer.
Joâs managed to catch up, and she whispers, âWhatâs wrong with him?â I shake my head.
âHowâs Will?â someone shouts. âAnd Tom.â
Tom. His name was Tom. The boy who bled on my jacket.
Devin doesnât say anything, just puts his hand to his eyes to block the light. Someone else calls out, âWhat did you see past the gate, Dev?â This rouses him. He moves his hands and speaks in a voice that needs to be lubricated. Thereâs blood on his teeth, and someone gasps.
âSoldiers. Wearing those suits. Full mask and everything. A tank.â
Everyone gets really quiet. A couple of people discreetly back away from him.
âTheyâre dead.â His voice cracks.
Mindy takes his hand. âWho, Devin? Will? Tom? Are you sure?â
Heâs shaking his head. âNo. I mean . . . Yes, Tom and Will died, a long time ago. From the crash. At least, I think so.â A few people have slumped to the floor. Zadie King is crying, holding a friend close. She was Tomâs girlfriend. Others start to sob, bodies shuddering all around me. And Iâm embarrassed that Iâm not. But my mind is whirling; I can feel it trying to put this all together. I glance across the room, and thereâs a large mirror where I can see all the students in a semicircle facing Devin. I see Rob grimacing behind me, Jo using her finger to pull a tear from her eye. I see myself, my forehead creased, my eyes dark and empty, and I hate it, this feeling. That Iâm stuck here and helpless. Zadie draws in a deep breath and controls herself, but Devin isnât done. Heâs still shaking his head, and I wonder how much that movement hurts him.
âI donât mean Tom and Will. I mean the others.â
âWho, Devin?â Mindy is using the voice she uses to coax information from students about drug stashes and unwanted sexual encounters. Devin looks so tired, so gaunt, and as he sits there, breathing hard, I notice the tear