If we get two miles west for every six south, weâll reach Yness.â
Sheâll be happy not to row. Her hands are blistered on both sides, the palms from the paddle, the backs from the sun. Blood is smeared across the rough-edged ends of the wood. Her hands are so numb she can barely hold her paddle, and her arms are so numb she can barely hold them out.
She digs for the phial of lotion. âNo sense in letting it go to waste,â she says. She puts a few dabs on her hands, then, after some initial reluctance, on his. Rubbing it into her fingers is like donning mittens in winter.
He sniffs his hands. They smell like some flower. He flexes them and reaches for his paddle. âWe still need to row now, though,â he says.
âLetâs keep going then,â Everlyn says and puts the phial away.
Sheâs tough. If someone has to put fingers in his mouth, it might as well be her.
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The world is cellar black when the poth awakes. Thick clouds obliterate the sky. For a moment she thinks sheâs dead. She canât see him. She canât see the boat. She canât feel anything. Sheâs beyond pain. Sheâs not sweating. She would be sweating if she were alive. Sheâs happy the darkness is a floating, not a falling. The soft breeze, though, waftingacross her face, suggests thereâs little difference between the two when there is no ground, no up or down.
Did she work herself to death? Did he coax her into it, playing on her willfulness? He wanted to keep paddling, even though they didnât have to anymore. Or did he slit her throat after she collapsed? Has he already started to devour her?
One winter a pair of trappers was lost for months above Ayden. They werenât found until spring, holed up in a cave, one woman fat and happy, the other gnawed and cracked to release her marrow. Her rescuers, appalled, bludgeoned the survivor with her own walking stick. Everlyn still wonders if the devoured woman knew what was in store for her. Did she fight her partner? Or did she surrender herself with pleasure?
Everlyn sees him crawling up her legs, gnashing with his scaly teeth. She kicks. Sheâll fight. She slams her boot heel into his belly. He wheezes. How did he get over there? She kicks him again. She hears him roll onto his side. Her heart rate slows. She rubs her neck. No slits, no blood. Sheâs alive. She must be.
She could kill him first. He wants her to testify. She could steer down the river like he said and race from Yness to Hanosh. It would be her tribute to him. She would carry him inside her belly. They would testify together with one voice and one mind.
Sheâs skinned game. Sheâs a fair butcher. She doesnât want to slaughter him, though. She wants him to keep. She has to savor him. She needs the knife. Sheâll make a little prick in his wrist and suck his blood slowly. She doesnât even need to kill him. She smiles. He doesnât have to die. Sheâll drink a little whenever heâs not looking. A sip here, a sip there. Heâll never know. Heâs so exhausted. His hands are cut up like hers. Whatâs another cut?
Her eyes adjust to the darkness. Everything glows green. Sheâs like a cat. She waves her paws around him. Heâs slumped over the pocket with the knife. She canât get to it. Wait. She should wash her hands. Always wash your hands before working with food, Everlyn.
She pads on her knees to her side of the boat. The sea is licking it. Itâs like a cat too. A thousand black cats in little white caps make little tiny laps. She pets the cats. So warm. So soft. Their fur is so deep. She smells them on her fingers. More like kitties than cats. She takes a little taste. Delicious! Why would she eat bony old him when she could eat these kitties? Donât eat kitties, Everlyn. Thereâs so many, though. No one would miss a couple or six. She lifts one yowling to her lips.
He yanks her