to ever end.
We get back in the car, head back to town, and then sit for a while in the car holding hands and talking.
Dinner. Then a movie. Itâs fun, but I want to be alone with Ted, without other people around.
By the time we get out of the movie, itâs very dark. There arenât any streetlights.
âI guess weâve got to go back,â I say.
Ted nods. âYeah, but I donât want to. Do you?â
I shake my head.
Another kiss. I think Iâve been kissed more times today than the total of all the times Iâve ever been kissed before.
This time, when I get into the car, I sit right next to Ted.
Itâs real dark on the road.
We drive along. My headâs on Tedâs shoulder. I put my hand on his knee.
He gives me a kiss on the top of my head and says, âWatch it. Iâve got to keep my mind on driving.â
I take my hand off his knee and move away.
âI didnât mean you had to leave. Are you always a person of extremes?â
I nod, move back, and just sit there.
We pull into the camp parking lot. Ted stops the car motor, turns off the headlights, and puts his arms around me. âNow I donât have to keep my mind on the driving.â
Reading books never really prepared me for how I feel. Itâs one thing to read about love and caring and wanting to hold someone and be held, but this is one time that the twenty-six letters donât come close to the real thing.
âMaking outâ is such a dumb expression for something so special.
Finally Ted says, âThis steering wheelâs really uncomfortable. Why donât we find someplace else to go? Like the backseat?â
I shake my head. âI donât think thatâs a good idea.â
âAfraid?â
I nod.
He kisses me. âOkay. Letâs just sit here a few minutes and relax.â He leans back.
I think about how wonderful he is. How Iâve always heard that lots of guys wonât take no for an answer. But Tedâs really nice. And Iâm not ready yet. I know that. Itâs not just the question of whatâs right or wrong about sex. I know that right now it would be more than I could handle to actually âgo all the wayâ as the kids in the cabin always say.
I put my hand on his knee and say, âI really care about you.â
He takes my hand off his knee and says, âThatâs not going to help me to relax, to have you do that right now. Iâm glad you care. I do too.â
More kissing.
âWant to reconsider your decision about not moving to the backseat?â he asks, touching my face.
âI keep reconsidering it, a lot. But no,â I say.
âOkay, then I think we should go back,â he says.
âAre you mad at me?â
âNo. I just think itâs best for us to stop now, if weâre not going any further. Otherwise itâs going to be very hard for me to maintain my reputation with you as ânice.â â He pats my hand. âCome on. Letâs get going.â
As we walk up the hill, he says, âTomorrow morning Iâll talk to Carl about giving us the same days off again for the next time, if you want that.â
I nod. âI want that.â
We get to the cabin. Just as we start to say good night, we hear a lot of screaming coming from the bunk.
We rush inside.
Thereâs a bat in bunk five.
CHAPTER 9
T hereâs a bat in bunk five!
Itâs flying all over the place.
I duck and feel like throwing up. What if it swoops down and its wings touch my face? Even worse, what if it bites me?
The kids are screaming, crying, and running.
Corrineâs trying to kill it with a dust mop.
Ted grabs a broom.
One of my worst fears is coming true. There reallyis a bat. Just when things are going well, something happens to ruin it. Itâs like Iâm being punished for being happy and doing what I want to do. Thatâs why Iâm so scared much of the time. Either