guy,â Marlene said, âand heâs gonna give us the first couple monthsâ rent for free while we get on our feet.â
Marleneâs new man would be running around on her or smacking her up before I had time to even get to thinking on the idea of a store.
So like she ainât said nothing at all, I said, âMarlene, you think any manâs ever gonna love me now that Iâm gonna have a kid and everything?â
Crazy as she is, Marlene comes through every now and again with a little bit of wisdom. âOh, honey,â she said. âIf heâs as good a man as you deserve, heâll see that little baby as a bonus.â
Khaki
EVERYONE ELSEâS BUSINESS
When I went off to college, practically every person in Kinston told me that I should rethink my interior design major. âIf she wants to learn how to move furniture around, you just send Khaki on down to the shop,â I remember one of my daddyâs friends chuckling.
If you arenât from a small town, you might not know how everyone is all up in everyone elseâs business every minute of the day. So you have to have a thick skin. I loved design and persevered through the insults and snarky comments. But that small-town cynicism must have gotten in anyhow because I am one of the worldâs most skeptical people. I believe in Jesus, but thatâs about it. Ghosts: fake. Bigfoot: no way. The Loch Ness Monster: biggest crock of all. So going to see an herbalist whose âofficeâ was a garage with a few braided throw rugs lying around, old floral bedsheets draped along the walls, and a ratty tan corduroy sofa that would have seemed more at home in your daddyâs old dorm room didnât seem like an ace in the hole to me.
We drove way out into the countryâI mean, Graham and I live in the country, but this was the
country
âto a 1900s farmhouse that needed painting a decade ago with a condemned house with fourteen rusted-out cars as a neighbor. I looked at Graham and said, âThanks, but no thanks. I think Iâll take the knife.â
He took my hand calmly and said, âLetâs just try it. If you get freaked out, weâll leave. We have nothing to lose.â
âExcept our lives,â I muttered under my breath. He rolled his eyes. But, I mean, really, he set himself up for that response, didnât he?
So, the garage wasnât Duke Universityâs Integrative Medicine Center, but it was at least clean. And Esther reminded me of Paulineâif Pauline wore floral-print tribal garb and talked with a thick Trinidadian accent. Estherâs warm smile, comforting Dove chocolate hands, and acknowledgment that âI know this isnât what youâre used to, but give it timeâ softened me a touch.
She helped me up onto a massage table that was soft, warm, and comfortable. I figured that, worst case, Iâd at least get to rest for an hour or so.
The soft, tinkling music, candlelight, and Estherâs waves-crashing-to-the-shore accent did make me feel a bit like Iâd been to the islands. She wanted to âread my feetâ first thing. As soon as she raised the sheet to check them out, the strangest thing happened.
I rose up on my elbows, looked at Graham, then at Esther, and said, âIs it weird that I taste pickles? Am I having a stroke or something?â
Esther laughed, the beads in her hair tinkling and said, âI put dill oil on the point on your feet that leads to your mouth.â She winked at me. âI wanted to show you that the points in the feet correspond to the organs of the body.â
Graham smiled at me supportively, and I lowered back down asEsther continued the âfoot treatmentâ that was definitely more deep tissue and less Swedish. âLess time at the computer,â she instructed as she kneaded away at my big toe, my body writhing in pain.
So, yeah, I spent a lot of time at the computer, like every other