continuing.
âThatâs where I put it.â She raises her chin and keeps her voice strong, as she faces the window. âItâs still there, that post. The paint has chipped away some but itâs still the only yellow post out there. IâI canât say why I went there. Iâwe hadnât shopped there for years. I didnât think anyone would ever connect me to it.â
She takes a deep breath and faces him. His eyes retreat again.
âYou buried the trophy from the manufacturersâ association next to a yellow post behind the Countryside?â Mat asks. âThe one on Apple and Riordan?â
âI did. So if Iâm convicted, you tell this to Jessica. But only then.â
Matâs gaze moves about the room, anywhere but at her. He is lost in thought for a long moment, blinking rapidly, eyes narrowing. âOkay. If it ever comes to it, I can tell her about that. Iâmâletâs find something to eat.â
Allison takes a step toward him. âYouâre the only personwho knows this,â she says. âI havenât even told my lawyer. If this got outâif anyone found outââ
âAllison.â He stops on his way to the kitchen but does not look at her. She senses a tightening in his posture.
âI wonât tell a soul,â he assures her.
ONE DAY EARLIER
MONDAY, MAY 3
A llison stares at the ghost in the mirror. She wants the judge to see her as she used to be, before the stress started doing its damage three months ago. She wants him to know her as a person, to know her life and background, to understand what she is capable of and what she is not.
But Judge Wilderburth will not know these things. Will not care to know. The facts of the case are the only things of relevance to him. It is a tainted filter, she realizes now more than ever. He will never know the full story. No jury, no judge ever has.
She looks at her watch, expecting Mat to walk in the door any minute to drive her to court, when the phone rings. Itâs seven-thirty in the morning and the phone is ringing.
She walks out of the master bathroom and finds her phone by the bed. The caller ID is noncommittal; the call is coming from an office.
âAllison, Paul Riley here.â
Paul Riley is the first lawyer Allison retained on the case. âHow are you, Paul?â
âGreat, Allison. Iâve been following the trial. It looks good.â
âNice of you to say.â Allison is sure the comment is insincere.
âThe evidence is circumstantial,â Paul adds, the classic take from a defense attorney. âThey still donât have the murder weapon, do they?â
Allison catches her breath. She grips the phone until it hurts. âThe, uhââ
âThe murder weapon,â Paul repeats. âThey donât know for sure what it is, and they surely donât have it, as far as I can tell.â
âNoâno,â Allison manages through the burn in her throat. âThey donât have it.â
âThat will be tough for them, I would think. Thatâs how you really put someone at a crime scene. No murder weapon, itâs all speculation.â
âIâI hope so.â
âI think Iâve upset you here, Allison. Listen to me, talking about murder weapons. All I really wanted to tell you is Iâm rooting for you.â
âThank you, Paul. I shouldâI should probablyââ
âYou need to get going. Best of luck, Allison.â
She sets the phone down and puts a hand against the wall to support herself. She feels the heat on her face, the perspiration gather on her forehead.
The murder weapon .
The front door opens, Mat calls out to her to come down.
She shakes her head hard. Okay. She collects herself and takes the stairs down.
J ane McCoy sits in the back row, far left corner, a place that has been kept open for her. Sheâs wearing herglassesâfirst time in yearsâand a