stare out beyond them into bleak continuance,
hoping to glimpse some end. Whereas theyâre really
our wintering foliage, our dark greens of meaning, one
of the seasons of the clandestine yearâ; not only
a seasonâ: theyâre site, settlement, shelter, soil, abode.
Ah, but the City of Pain: how strange its streets are:
the false silence of sound drowning sound,
and thereâproud, brazen, effluence from the mold of emptinessâ
the gilded hubbub, the bursting monument.
How an Angel would stamp out their market of solaces,
set up alongside their church bought to order:
clean and closed and woeful as a post office on Sunday.
Outside, though, thereâs always the billowing edge of the fair.
Swings of Freedom! High-divers and Jugglers of Zeal!
And the shooting gallery with its figures of idiot Happiness
which jump, quiver, and fall with a tinny ring
whenever some better marksman scores. Onward he lurches from cheers
to chance; for booths courting each curious taste
are drumming and barking. And thenâfor adults onlyâ
a special show: how money breeds, its anatomy, not some charade:
moneyâs genitals, everything, the whole act
from beginning to endâeducational and guaranteed to make you
virile . . . . . . . .
.⦠Oh, but just beyond that,
behind the last of the billboards, plastered with signs for âDeathless,â
that bitter beer which tastes sweet to those drinking it
as long as they have fresh distractions to chewâ¦,
just beyond those boards, just on the other side: things are real.
Children play, lovers hold each other, off in the shadows,
pensive, on the meager grass, while dogs obey nature.
The youth is drawn farther on; perhaps heâs fallen in love
with a young Lament . . . . . He pursues her, enters meadowland. She says:
âItâs a long way. We live out thereâ¦â
                                                                  Where? And the youth follows.
Something in her bearing stirs him. Her shoulders, neckâ,
perhaps sheâs of noble descent. Still, he leaves her, turns around,
glances back, waves ⦠Whatâs the use? Sheâs a Lament.
Only the youthful dead, in the first state
of timeless equanimity, the phase of the unburdening,
follow her with loving steps. The girls
she waits for and befriends. Gently lets them see
the things that adorn her. Pearls of grief and the delicate
veils of suffrance. âWhen with young men
she walks on in silence.
Later, though, in the valley where they live, an older one, one of the elder Laments,
adopts the youth when he asks questions: âLong ago,
she says, we Laments were a powerful race. Our forefathers
worked the mines in those giant mountains; among humans
sometimes youâll find a fragment of polished primeval grief,
or, from an old volcano, a slag of petrified wrath.
Yes, it came from here. We used to be rich.â
And she guides him quietly through the wide landscape of Laments,
shows him the columns of temples, or the ruins
of those strongholds from which, long ago, Lament-Kings
wisely governed the land. Shows him the tall
trees of tears and the fields of flowering melancholy
(the living know them only as tender leaves):
shows him the animals of sorrow, grazing, âand sometimes
a bird startles, flies low through their lifted gazes, extends
into the distance the ancient glyph of its desolate cry.â
At evening she leads him out to the ancestral tombs
of the House of Lament, those of the sybils and the dire prophets.
But as night approaches, they move more slowly, until
suddenly, rising up moon-like, there appears: the great sepulchre
that watches over everything. Twin