Amber was the only pharmacist in Elk Ridge, the next closest town over, I wouldnât have been surprised if, in these small, close-knit communities, sheâd known the Pickrons or at least been peripherally familiar with the familyâs name.
At last I said, âIs Sean there? I tried the bait shop.â
âNo one picked up?â
âNo.â
âFigures. Heâs out ice fishing. He doesnât always get someone to cover the store. You know how he can be.â
I didnât know how to respond to that. âYes.â
âReally, Pat.â I sensed a subtle shift in her tone. A softer quality. âYou know youâre welcome here.â
âI know.â Based on my history with Amber it wouldnât be a good idea for me to head over there, especially if Sean was late in getting home. Additionally, because of my relationship with Lien-hua I didnât want to give anyone the wrong impression. âIâll be tied up all morning, but I should be able to get away for lunch. Do you think that would work? For the two of you?â
âIâll talk to Sean.â I heard the clink of glasses in the background. Sheâd gone back to doing the dishes. For the moment at least, sheâd given up on convincing me to come to the house tonight. âItâs business,â she said, âso Tessa didnât come along?â
âI was hoping she could come over tomorrow, but with this storm, weâll see. Sheâs in the Twin Cities this week.â
âI hope she can make it.â More dishes. âWeâve never met, you know. Your stepdaughter and I.â
Now that I thought about it, I realized she was right. Amber hadnât made it to my wedding with Tessaâs mother and had been in the hospital with food poisoning the weekend of Christieâs funeral nearly two years ago. âIâll try to make that happen. Iâll call you in the morning. Weâll set up a time to get together.â I was stumbling for a way to gently ease out of this conversation. âAfter you talk to Sean.â
âItâll be good to see you. Itâs been too long.â
I wondered if itâd been long enough.
âGood night, Amber.â
âGood night.â
We ended the call, and I slowly lowered the phone.
Hearing her say good night to me again brought back a rush of memories and emotions that I really didnât need surrounding me at the moment.
A few months back, when Lien-hua and I had started to get serious, sheâd told me that she wanted us to look forward and not backward. In lieu of this, sheâd proposed that we not talk about past loves, past mistakes, past regrets, and as it happens, Amber fell into all three categories. So, although I wouldâve been glad to discuss things with Lien-hua, Iâd never spoken to her about Amber. Never even brought her up.
But now, I thought again of what had happened five years ago between me and Amber when she and Sean were engaged. Even though Lien-hua was the one whoâd suggested not dredging up the past, in light of our potential future together, I felt a vague wash of guilt just thinking about Amber, and our relationship seemed like something Lien-hua should know about.
This week Lien-hua was on-site in Cincinnati profiling a case of three missing women.
I was about to tap at the phone to speed-dial her but then had second thoughts. It would probably be best to think through how to delicately broach the subject of Amber first, before getting on the line with Lien-hua.
I held the phone for a moment, staring at it, thinking about why the shooter might have returned up the stairs a second time after the murders.
The phone. Hmm.
Yes, check on that first, then call Lien-hua.
Using my laptop I logged into the Federal Digital Database, found that Donnie and Ardis Pickron had only one cell phone between them, registered in her name. I entered my federal ID number again and pulled