turned the light back on, and we made her bed. I had only one pillow but two cases, and I offered to stuff the spare with socks.
Her voice was smaller than it had been and apologetic when she said, âDo you mind if I sleep with your husband?â
I stared at her. It took me a minute to realize that she meant my reading pillowâit was corduroy with armsâand as I handed it to her, I said, âDid you make that up?â
She said, âThatâs what itâs called.â
It would be another year before I told her that at that moment Iâd thought she was a split-personalitied nymphomaniac. After that, out of nowhere, sheâd sometimes put on a twisted, sexed-up voice and say, âDo you mind if I sleep with your husband?â
I turned off the light again, and we said good night, but then she was saying my nameânot addressing me, but musing. âSophie. Itâs a pretty name,â she said.
âI was named after my great-grandmother,â I said.
She said, âItâs old-fashioned,â which was what I hated about my name. âYou donât hear it too often.â
âWhat about yours?â I said, though I wasnât sure what I meant.
She said, âI was named for the place of my conception,â and it sounded like she was claiming that the city had been named for her.
But then she said, âIâm lucky they didnât name me Gondola. Or Canal,â and I went all the way from hating to liking her, and the distance made me feel like I loved her.
. . . . .
Those first weeks, Venice caused a big stir. Iâd go to parties with herâwe traveled in packs of at least five or six to fraternitiesâand once we got there she was always surrounded.
But there were nights when sheâd say, âLetâs not go,â and sheâd act like we were cutting a class.
Usually we stayed in to watch a movie on television, a movie she said I absolutely needed to seeâ 12 Angry Men , The Shop Around the Corner , The Best Years of Our Lives . Weâd go down to the basement TV lounge and turn off all the lights. It would be dark except for the TV and the red of the soda machine and its everlasting NO CHANGE light.
I loved all of the movies she did, and The Heiress so much that I forgot all about Venice until the commercials, when sheâd repeat the lines she liked best.
Her favorite came at the end of the movie: Years after standing Catherine up on the night theyâre supposed to elope, Morris comes back, and heâs knocking and then pounding on her door, and she says to her servant, âBar the door, Maria.â
â âBar the door, Maria,â â Venice said. âThe rallying cry of jilted women everywhere.â
. . . . .
In her closet, Venice kept a bottle of Shooting Sherry, just a regular medium-dry sherry, but its name made me think of hounds and horses, plaid blankets, and roaring fires. Some nights after studying weâd drink it out of glasses sheâd taken from the dining hall. Weâd lie on our beds and talk. Iâd smoke cigarettes.
Sheâd talk to me about a book sheâd read for a classâshe kept up with her reading, as I never couldâor sheâd mention an article from the New York Times , which she read every day, as no one else did. Or sheâd read aloud from a novel she was crazy about; that fall it was Lolita , and in the winter Anna Karenina .
. . . . .
Venice didnât confide in me for a long time, and even when she did, it sounded less like a confidence than just a story she wanted to tell because it was interesting.
The first one she told me was about Georges. Their families had rented the villa together in Antibes; heâd come for the last week. As she spoke, I realized it was Georges sheâd been thinking of that first night in the Pines when her voice got dreamy and sheâd said, âThis morning I