too,â I say as we back out of the driveway and head toward the beach. Itâs a warm evening, but as soon as the sun sets completely, the night chill will hit. Iâm glad I brought my sweaterâthe same sweater I let Nellie borrow over the summer and she didnât get it back to me until the first day of school. Thatâs my girl.
âJayd, you canât let Tania get to you, I already told you that,â Jeremy says, turning Creed back up, but not so loud that we canât hear each other.
âIs it really that simple?â Maybe everything in his world actually is that cut-and-dry. To have a baby on the way, he seems remarkably calm. A little too calm, if you ask me. âWhy doesnât shit bother you that would worry the hell out of a normal person?â I say, realizing weâre heading for Palos Verdes. âAnd where are you taking me?â
âWell, which question do you want me to answer first?â he says, trying to be a smart-ass, but Iâm not in the mood.
âTake your pick,â I say, returning his attitude tenfold.
âWell, my dad decided to have a barbecue at the last minute, so I was hoping you wouldnât mind coming back to my house for dinner instead of going out,â he says, casually dropping a bomb on me. Iâm in no mood to deal with his dysfunctional family today. What the hell?
âWhy didnât you tell me before now!â I yell, practically drowning out the smooth tunes. How could he spring a surprise like this on me?
âWell, because I just found out when I left to come and get you,â Jeremy says, not realizing how upset heâs just made me. âWhatâs the big deal?â he adds, trying to make light of the situation.
âThe big deal is that you didnât tell me about it, so Iâm not prepared. Iâm dressed for coffee by the pier, not dinner with the family.â Rah would never pull no shit like this. He would just know better. And so would KJ, for that matter. It must be a cultural thang.
âNobody cares what you look like. My parents love you.â Now, he should know both of those statements are the furthest thing from the truth. His motherâs a strange wench, and his dadâs always drunk, so who knows what he really thinks. But whenever Iâm around them I feel like Iâm on display.
âJeremy, can we skip the social hour and just kick it, you and me?â I plea. Maybe if Iâm sweet heâll let me have my way. We have too much unsettled business, and we need to be alone to discuss it all.
âJayd, stop being so self-conscious. As quick as you are to tell people off, Iâd think you could care less about what people think of you,â Jeremy says, uncovering some buried resentment of his own. I knew he was embarrassed by my mouth, but I had no idea he was still upset about it.
âAre you serious?â I say, ready to go off but trying to keep my cool. âYou canât be comparing you not telling me where weâre going so that I would know what to expect to me getting into it with Tania the other day.â
âAll Iâm saying is that you canât have it both ways. Either you care what people think about you or you donât.â I think things are just that simple from his point of view. His crystal-blue eyes sparkle as the last of the sun hides in the horizon, allowing the evening to begin. Weâre almost up the hill, entering into Palos Verdes Estates. Iâm sure many people envy the folks up in here. But personally, Iâd rather be at home.
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âHere we are,â Jeremy says, pulling up to the huge lawn in front of his house. The smell of the grill makes my stomach growl, even if I may protest the whole thing. The rest of our ride was uncomfortably silent. Jeremy can be so self-righteous sometimes it drives me crazy. He thinks he knows the best way always, and thatâs just not so. I admit, I do have a slight