comfortable. I grab a bag of Doritos from the large wicker basket on the table full of snacks. My momâs the snack queen. I walk back across the room to retrieve my notebook from my backpack and thumb through the notes involving Marty I made today at lunch. Iâm concentrating so hard on her no longer being my manager Iâm surprised she made it through the day. If this stuff really worked, sheâd be long gone.
âSo, it worked for you to write down what you wanted to happen in any given situation?â I say, reviewing my words. Damn, my handwriting is awful. I can barely make out what Iâve written.
âWell, yeah, but not in a positive way. I usually wrote down negative shit. Like, for example, I remember I was dating this fool in high school, and he thought he was gone play me with some chick up the block,â she says, sipping her Baileyâs and getting real loose. I love it when my mom tells me about her school days. I canât believe how much of the same drama we go through from generation to generation. I wonder if this happens in all families or if itâs just a Williams Woman trait. âI wrote him such a nasty letter saying that I hope she would give him syphilis and make his penis fall off and all kinds of stuff.â
âDid it fall off?â I say, as my phone vibrates, signaling a text. Itâs Jeremy, saying heâll be here in ten minutes.
âJust about. I know he got some sort of sexually transmitted disease, and itâs one that will never go away. He didnât bother me again after that,â my mom said, her voice low and guttural, almost frightening. Iâm glad Iâm not one of her enemies. I hope sheâs thinking about something similar happening to Ras Joe.
âSo, what was negative about that?â I say. âIt sounds like he got what he deserved.â
âYes, but so did the girl, and I didnât wish anything on her, not really. Thatâs the thing about dealing with the negative side of our gifts,â she says wearily. âIt usually hits its target, and then some, because of the power of your intentional thoughts. When you focus a lot of passion on something, you give it energy, and that can backfire on you.â
âWow.â I donât know what else to say. My momâs sitting here telling me that her thoughts made this dude catch something and pass it on to the trick he was fooling around with. That doesnât sound so bad to me. âSo how exactly did you do this?â I say, ready to take notes. Maybe I can have similar residual luck with Tania but without affecting Jeremy.
Thatâs what Iâm trying to tell you; negative always hits more than the intended victim, my mom says without speaking. Damn, I still forget she can do that.
âMom, just talk to me without reading my mind,â I say. It was enough having to be careful what I say around her, now I have to be careful what I think, too.
Okay, she says, still on the telepathic plane. Seeing my frustration, my mom stops and comes back down to my level. âYou have to let me practice sometimes.â
âIâm actually proud of you for reclaiming your power, even if it only works on me.â I wish sheâd stuck with her studies, like sheâs advising me to do. I think my momâs very powerful in her own right, and she could use some of that power to help a sistah out.
âWell, thank you very much,â she says, her green eyes glistening in the setting afternoon sun. The time recently changed, falling one hour behind, so itâs starting to get dark earlier. âLearn from my mistakes, Jayd,â she says, placing her empty glass on the coffee table in front of her and curling up into the fetal position, ready to sleep the rest of the day away. My phone vibrates again, indicating Jeremyâs arrival.
âIs White boy here?â she says, smiling at herself. Why is everyone hating on Jeremy