we were forcing ourselves to “like” one another.
We got down to the show just before it started. People were walking around talking, drinking, and laughing. I held Leslie’s hand and we made it to our seats.
I remembered growing up and music would always be playing around the house. Especially on the weekend when me and my brother would be cleaning and doing out other weekend chores. I can remember seeing my mother with the vacuum dancing as she made her way around the house. My father was usually out getting drunk and would come home and fight with my mother. He would cuss me and my brother so hard that once I found a knife under my brother’s pillow where he was planning to slit my father’s throat when he passed out.
I can admit that I was damaged. It wasn’t something that I was proud of. I never discussed it and tried not to think about it.
Since things were going good between Leslie and me I wasn’t going to jinx it and think bad thoughts. I wanted to look at the future and be confident that things would get better.
The show started and local artists came out first. I wanted to see Toni Braxton perform since it had been over five years when I saw her in Las Vegas. After about two hours there was an intermission. I knew that she would be up next. I went and got Leslie and me something else to drink. As I was walking back to my seat I noticed a very attractive older gentleman looking in my direction. I stopped and observed him for a minute. I noticed when he tilted his head to the side beckoning me to follow. I looked down at the drinks and back at him. Leslie was waiting and I was waiting on Toni’s performance. I could feel my nature growing intensely in my pants. For once I had to think with the head on my shoulders and not the head in my pants.
I made my way back to my seat. I passed Leslie her drink and took a long sip of my cognac. Leslie placed her hand on my thigh. I looked at her and smiled.
LESLIE (noticing my manhood on the side of my leg)
In the words of R. Kelly, “Seems like you’re ready.”
NATHAN
Anytime that I am next to you I am ready.
LESLIE
We can leave now and take care of that.
NATHAN
Baby I need to see Toni Braxton perform. Then we will go and take care of each other all night.
NATHAN
Toni gave a great show didn’t she?
LESLIE
She was good.
NATHAN
She was better than good. She was awesome. Towanda and Trina still got it too. Great women and great singers.
LESLIE
You know she was lip-syncing?
NATHAN
Never that! Don’t be a hater baby. Toni has nothing on you.
Leslie began to take her clothes off. I decided that I wanted something else to drink.
NATHAN
Bae, I am going down to the bar and get a bottle of wine. I will be back.
LESLIE
Okay. Take your time, but hurry up. I have something for you.
NATHAN
I won’t give you time to miss me.
I knew that she wanted this trip to be as romantic as possible. I wanted the same thing. The more I wanted her the more my mind raced to other people that I saw. I needed to deny those feelings. I wanted to make sure my marriage worked.
When I returned to the room with a bottle of chardonnay there were lit candles around the room. The fragrance was tickling my nose and drawing me into the room. Luther Vandross was playing over the room.
LESLIE
I wanted this trip to be about you and me. I know that I hadn’t been romantic in a while. And when I think about the birthday surprise that you gave me my heart flutters. You are so special to me. I don’t want to lose you to anyone. If there is something that I am not doing I want you to tell me. We can’t make it if we don’t communicate.
I tried to speak