ICE CREAM .â
Dad shakes his head sadly. âIâm not sure Learning Camp has even dented your reading issues.â
âMight as well take a look while weâre here.â Mom grabs her purse and crosses the street.
As excited as I am, Iâm also anxious. Suppose Lauren Hutchins isnât here today? Even worse, suppose she is here, recognizes me as the kid who killed her best friend, and becomes a raging lunatic? Worse than that , suppose nothing happens and Iâve spent my summer obsessed with something that doesnât have any meaning at all.
As we walk toward the large barn, I wish I were doing anything elseâeven reading. I slip the leash on Bodi and bring him along for good luck.
Tongue-tied
As Dad checks out leatherbound notebooks, Mom tries on handmade fleece jackets. I quietly make my way from booth to booth until I see Hutchins Designs. I pull Bodi behind a tall CD rack made of twigs and check out Lauren Hutchins. Her long brown hair is in dreadlocks, tied back with a large woven scarf. She wears yoga pants and a tie-dyed hoodie. Her earrings are made with feathers and tiny silver beads; several variations of the same design fill the display case beside her. Before I can assess the situation, she spots Bodi.
âCome here, fella. Come on.â She bends down and gestures to Bodi, who immediately goes to her. When I stop hating girls and start wanting to date themâtwenty or thirty years from nowâIâm definitely taking lessons from Bodi. My dog makes out with more pretty girls than any hunky doctor on TV.
âWhatâs his name?â Lauren asks.
âBodi.â
She continues to scratch his head and eventually looks up at me. âYou here to buy a present for your girlfriend?â
Her ridiculous comment makes me even more nervous than I already am. I tell her no and pretend to look at the jewelry. I pick up a leather necklace with shells and a few feathers.
âFeathers are good luck, did you know that? Birds were considered messengers from the gods.â
For the life of me, I canât spit out one word that makes sense. When she points to my T-shirt and asks if I skateboard, all I can do is nod yes. To make matters worse, my father strolls over, quietly checking out Laurenâs work as if heâs some kind of jewelry expert. Please go, I want to say. This is hard enough without you here . To complicate things, my mother comes by too.
âDid you and Bodi find a new friend?â My mother smiles at Lauren as she checks out her wares.
I want to cover myself in one of the woven blankets in the next stall and hide until our vacation is over. Lauren looks at each of us with an expression of friendly confusion, as if sheâs trying to figure out who we are and why weâre there. I read your guestbook entry, I want to say. We were both there when Susan James died. My scheme to tie up this summer mystery now seems like a giant mistake. When my parents move to the pottery display down the aisle, I follow along behind them. I glance over to see Lauren Hutchins one more time, but sheâs helping an elderly woman try on a bracelet and doesnât look up.
Back in the car, my father makes my mother feel the soft leather cover of the new sketchbooks he bought for both of us. I sit in the backseat and fume about how I just blew my big chance with Lauren. I gather all the strength I have and tell my parents a straight-out lie.
âI left my book inside,â I say.
âYou took it in with you?â my mother asks.
âYes, and I left it on one of the tables. Iâll be right back.â I jump out of the car and hope for one last chance at hearing Laurenâs story firsthand.
The Truth Is Never What You Think
When I race back to Laurenâs stall, sheâs sitting on a stool, reading. I take a deep breath and dive in.
âI saw your entry on Susan Jamesâs Web site,â I begin.
She tilts her head.
Roxy Sinclaire, Natasha Tanner