ensuring our rights to abort our fetuses.
âLauren. Lauren Brooks.â
âOh.â She says it, too, like itâs a word, not a sound; like itâs a greeting. Sheâs staring. The neurons are firing but nothing is happening, itâs a terrible moment. She went to high school in the city and a college upstate that excels at producing the next generation of publishing and art world talent, so of course, sheâs run into old classmates from time to time. She finds it baffling. Melissa Reid had frozen for her at seventeen; to see her, as she had a year or so ago, in her mannish blazer, stabbing away at a phone, looking a little thick around the waistâit was hard to make sense of. It isnât that Lauren has a bad recall, itâs just that she can only recall what she knows. She had been able to recall the Melissa Reid with the hot older brother, the Melissa Reid whose parents divorcedin such spectacular fashion that she ended up with two cars on her sixteenth birthday, the Melissa Reid who was alleged to have sucked Dylan Berkâs dick in the backseat of a bus en route to a field trip at Fallingwater. Melissa Reid, securities traderâshe was someone Lauren never knew.
âGod, how are you?â the girl says, unhelpfully. She has high cheekbones and short hair, like a fashion model from the nineties, like a girlish lesbian, like a little French boy. She leans forward, toward Lauren, doing this thing with her neck that is so unflattering Lauren almost wants to tell her to stop before remembering that sheâs trying to figure out who she is; the tips on comportment can come later.
Lauren canât tell whatâs warranted: handshake, half hug, kiss, sincere embrace. She tugs her tote bag over her shoulder and sort of hides behind it, protectively. âHey!â
âGod, you look beautiful, look at you!â The girl puts a hand on Laurenâs arm, a gesture that is clue enoughâthe implication of an intimacy now passedâand as their skins come into contact, Lauren remembers. Maybe itâs hormonal, animal, some secretion by which we can identify others of our species. Jill Hansen. Fraternal twin brother, Riley (fat, pale, much less pretty than Jill), elderly dad, and much-younger mother, from whom Jill had, fortunately, inherited a perfect, perfect nose, and of course, those cheekbones. Jill Hansen. Lauren hasnât had occasion to imagine Jill Hansen in the past decade and a half, but they were friends, once. Laurenâs default attitude to these old acquaintances encountered on the street is usually disdain, so sheâs surprised to discover she still feels warmly toward Jill Hansen.
âJill. Wow!â
âItâs great to see you.â Jill Hansenâs eyes widen. Sheâs turned out to be one of those people who look better at thirty-two than at thirteen.
âYou look amazing!â This is what you say, but Jill does.
âI donât.â A dismissive wave. âBut Iâll take it. I need to hear it. I just had our second, I feel like a corpse.â
âYour second!â Laurenâs at the age now where sheâs required to affect enthusiasm about other peopleâs fecundity. She likes babies well enough but feels the false note in her own words.
âYeah, do you have kids?â An excited edge in Jillâs voice: visions of playdates, the kids squirming in front of a movie, the husbands discussing whatever heterosexual men discuss with one another.
âMe? No, no kids.â She has a strange urge to proffer her hand, show thereâs no wedding band there. How hetero-normative someone like Jillâan early adopter of veganism, who refused to wear leather shoes and organized a schoolwide letter-writing campaign in support of Mumia Abu-Jamalâwould probably find that. âYou have two!â Changing the subject.
âLeo, heâs four, and Audie, sheâs two months.â She says it