Free Right Now (The Seduced Series) by Jackie McMahon

with me. Did she care for me too? Well, she mentioned it in front of Alana. But then again it could have been an act? I couldn’t really be sure.
    Do I love her? Yes. Do I want to be with her? Yes. W ould I put a ring on her finger? Without doubt yes. But what kind of life could I truly offer her? What kind of boyfriend or husband could I be to her? I was a CIA agent for fucks sake! My world was too dangerous for her. I was too dangerous for her and if any of my enemies were to learn about her. They would try to use that against me. I shuddered at the thought. Already one of them had started plotting something but then again she was never mine when this all started. I would never forgive myself if she got hurt. And if I told her the truth on why she had to stay here with me? Would she still want to be with me? I had so many questions with no answers. I gave up when glanced at the clock, it was already midnight.
    I can’t believe I lost track of time, thinking about her nonetheless. Everyone is asleep now, and I needed a hard drink to take the edge off. I was hardly ever stressed to the point where I needed alcohol to calm my nerves. I hated the way it tasted and especially the effect that it made me feel. I’m always sharp and clear-headed but one drink won’t hurt. I went up to my bedroom and changed into pajama bottoms and a white T-shirt. I made my way downstairs to the kitchen and pulled out a glass and a bottle of whiskey from the cabinets. I never touched this stuff before, it was a gift from someone from one of my birthdays. I guess there’s a first time for everything…
    I took my third sip when I heard soft footsteps come down the stairs and then stop. I didn’t need to look to know it was her. I could feel her like I felt the wind. Damn it, I was really being tested now. When I looked up at her, I froze at the sight of her. She wore a black satin nightgown; it was short and showing off her long sexy legs. I swallowed hard as I tore my eyes away from her. It felt like my eyes would burn in their sockets from the sight of her like this but I also don’t want to make her feel uncomfortable.
    “Well this is a little weird. I’m sorry I didn’t think anyone would be down here,” she said.
    “C ouldn’t sleep?” I asked.
    “Yeah, I came down to get something to drink. You?”
    I nodded as s he went to the fridge and grabbed herself a bottle of water. As she bent down to grab the water I stole another look at her. She was truly a Goddess, pure and perfect. She turned to leave and I couldn’t let her just go like that. I was craving for her company… what am I saying, I was craving to touch her.
    “Don’t go,” I said and she froze. She turned back to look at me like she didn’t hear what I said. “Join me?” She thought about for a second and then came to sit in the chair that was next to me. We sat in silence for a while, enjoying nothing but each other’s presence, which was better than the whiskey. “Do you know that I hate alcohol?” She looked at me in confusion. “I don’t like it, I only drink hoping it will relax me,” I said pushing the glass away. “It doesn’t do it for me.”
    “I’m sure it’s not easy being you,” she said.
    “That’s the least of my problems,” I replied while staring at her soft lips.
    “What are your problems then Dennis?”
    “You,” I said truthfully as her eyes grew wide from my response.
    “Me?”
    “Yes ,” I said while lifting my hand to her soft cheek. “And how much I want you right now,” I added as I touched her lips with my thumb.
    “Dennis,” she whispered breathlessly.
    “I’ m sorry I’ve been such a dick for the past week. I was only trying to distant myself from you. I can’t and I know that I never will,” I said sliding my hand down her neck. “I was disgusted with myself for being so weak and having my way with you that night. But now I can see why I acted that way. You could just wave your hand and I would be on my