a bike splashes through the puddles on the road.
âHey!â
A hand goes up, waving at me as he passes. Iâm not sure if itâs a screw-you or an apology, but my jeans are starting to stick to my ankles and my left shoe is soaked, so it doesnât really matter what the wave means. I donât want to be here with all these new faces. Right now Rubyâs probably walking to school with some other kids from our street. Theyâll be talking about their weekends that didnât include me, and pretty soon no one will mention me, or ask about me, or even remember I existed. Iâll be a ghost to them.
The rainâs so heavy even my golf umbrella is being knocked around. Kids run past me. My brotherâs disappeared inside and Iâm dawdling. Girls laugh behind me and I guess theyâre laughing at me, so Iâm just going to stay here, hope everyone will pass me and then maybe I can walk up the steps and sneak in unnoticed.
âLilian?â
Thatâs clearly not going to happen. A tall, thin woman is staring at me.
âYes, but Iâd rather Lily or Lil.â
âOf course. Iâm Mrs Jarvis. The principal.â
âRight.â
âWelcome to Gideon High School.â
âHigh school? I thought it was the only school.â
âYes it is. But the high school students are in the back part of the building and the primary school students are in the front part of the building.â She says all this with one of those smiles that look like sheâs deranged, but putting on a good show. And thenthe rain suddenly stops and the air is quiet again. I fiddle with my umbrella, but itâs stuck. She reaches in, unsnaps the button and the umbrella just folds down, like itâs surrendering. She shakes it gently and all the drops fall downwards, not like when I do it, shaking water everywhere like a dog after a bath. She hands it to me.
âThanks.â
âWhereâs your brother? Itâs Max, isnât it?â
âYeah. Yes. Heâs inside already.â
âWell, then, come and meet your class, Lil.â
âGreat. I canât wait.â
Sheâs a fast walker, Mrs Jarvis. Her feet snip along at a pace that even Iâm struggling to keep up with. Inside, kids whip out of her way, not through fear, but because sheâs someone with a purpose. Eyes watch me as I follow her down the hall. Mouths move, words being said, whispers shared. Iâm glad I have her in front of me. Sheâs a human shield, setting a pace Iâve got no choice but to follow. I concentrate on her tiny-boned ankles instead of on the inside of my new school.
The building is tall. It seems larger inside than it looked from the outside. The walls stretch up for ages to a dark ceiling. Thereâs a series of little rooms off the hallway. As we pass each one, pockets of noise burst out, and then quieten down again until we reach the next. Itâs not like my old school. There everyone yelled until the bell rang and if you didnât get out of the way, you were pushed.
Finally we reach the end of the hall. She turns a sharp left and walks into a room with maybe ten kids already seated. They stop speaking as we enter and they all stare at me. I try to smile, but I canât.
âClass, this is Lily Frost. Sheâs just moved here from the city.â
Something in the way she says âcityâ makes me think she doesnât like it much. My face feels hot, so Iâm probably blushing. I wish I wouldnât. I wish I could be bold and brave and socially cool like Ruby, but even with only ten new faces staring at me, itâs hard. I manage a sort of smile and then I look down, hiding under my thick fringe, hoping my cheeks arenât as red as I suspect they might be.
âHi, Lily. Iâm Danny. Sorry about splashing you before.â Itâs him. The boy on the bike.
âItâs fine,â I whisper.
âAnd Iâm Julia.