Free Stay by S. Mulholland

wall up but it seems like the more time we spend with each other the more I see that he does care a lot about me—or I think he does.
                  There’s times when we’re so close, yet so far away. It’s like there’s something he’s holding on to that he can’t get rid of, or maybe…he doesn’t want to.
                  “We’re here.” Magda says breaking me out of my dark thoughts.
                  I look around and notice that we’re at Melanie’s house. It’s an all red brick house with overdone landscaping and over the top decorations. Figures…her house is just as fake as she is.
                  I look at Magda and shrug. “You know what? No matter how hard they try to make this place look like a home…you still get the feeling that this house is as empty and shallow as the owners.”             
                  “I know…this Bitch and her fucking parents try too damn hard—the funny thing is no one likes them for that same reason.” She takes a deep breath and smiles menacingly, “But tonight…Melanie Martinez will learn not to mess with things that don’t belong to her.”
                  I roll my eyes. “Jason’s not mine, Magda. He never has been and that has been proven time and time again—he doesn’t belong to me. Just like I don’t belong to him,” I add with a forced smile.
                  My heart hurts at the pain I hear in my voice.
                  I have wanted to be Jason’s since the first day I met him and I’ve tried to show him by sticking around and never bringing up the topic of what we are to each other but I’ve had it.
                  I believed him when he basically told me he hadn’t slept with Melanie.
                  I believe him every time he makes love to me and makes me feel like I’m his only one. I never thought he would play me…until this very moment.
                  I feel my blood boiling at the thought of him lying to me for the past two months about his relationship status and his involvement with Melanie.
                  So tonight, I end this little mystery because I don’t care anymore. If he’s been bullshitting me…well, shit—let’s just say two can play this game.
                  “Yea…okay,” Magda says with a snort. “Let’s get out and show these assholes who’s boss, shall we?”
                  Ignoring her comment, I revel in the fact that part of what she said is true. It’s time for all this nonsense to come to an end, even if it means losing Jason. I have too much pride to be his second or third lay each night.
                  “Oh…we shall indeed, Magda…we shall indeed.” I say bitterly.
                  Mixed emotions flood through me when we enter Melanie’s packed house. I’m angry at the reason for my being here, I’m sad at the fact that Jason more than likely has been lying to me this whole time, and I’m disappointed that out of everyone on campus it had to be Slutinez that he got with. Yuck!
                  I would be lying to myself if I said that I didn’t have a glimmer of hope that this might all just be a lie and Jason really isn’t here with Melanie or with anyone. I want to believe so badly that it’s just me but I’m not so sure anymore.
                  Looking down as we walk through the crowd of people in the living room, I put on my big girl panties to deal with the drama I have going on right now. After gathering my courage, I look up and see that I’m getting stared at by every single person here. What the fuck?
                  “Magda…” I whisper in her ear mid stride.
                  She turns around irritated that I’m stopping her motivated speed walking. “What?!” She asks harshly.
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