looked away. âNo.â There was such shame and misery on her pretty face that he winced in sympathy.
âYou got into trouble during last nightâs invasion.â Her fear was too new, too raw, for anything but a very recent cause. He pushed a strand of her dark hair away from her eyes and tucked it behind her ear. âWhat happened, Lark?â
She swallowed and looked away. He was beginning to think she wasnât going to answer when she finally admitted it. âWhen the attack started, I did okay. At first. I killed one of them.â Her gaze flicked back to his with a touch of defiant pride.
Gawain nodded. âGood.â
Lark blew out a breath. âBut then another one hit me. He wasâ¦strong. Theyâre all strong, but not like that. He knocked my sword out of my hand. I kept trying to blast him, but I couldnât get through his shields. He hit me, and Iâ¦â
Gawain worked to keep the rage off his face. The idea of one of those vicious bastards getting his hands on delicate little Lark McGuinâ¦He cleared his throat. âThe thing about the sorcerers is their death magic makes them really nasty on a battlefield. They get stronger the longer combat goes on because they draw power from the deaths around them.â
âOh.â Her shoulders rounded. She still wouldnât meet his gaze. âThat would explain it.â
âWhat happened then?â
âHe took me down and bit me.â Lark swallowed. âTore my throat. I tried to fight, but I couldnât get him off me. If Guinevereâs spell hadnât wiped them all out, Iâd be dead.â
âIt wasnât your fault, Lark.â
âObviously. But I couldnât stop it either. And nowâ¦â The girl rolled her shoulders in a jerky gesture. âNow Iâm wondering whatâs going to happen the next time Iâm in a fight.â She met his gaze again. âBut I wonât run.â
âOf course not.â
âI just want you to be clear on that. You donât have to worry about me cutting and running. I wonât do that.â Despite the brave words, self-doubt shadowed her eyes. âIâm not a coward.â
Every instinct Gawain had clamored to tell her sheâd never have to face danger again, that heâd protect her with his last breath. But not only was such an offer unrealistic, it was insulting. She was a Maja, and she had her own power, her own pride. And her own responsibilities to the Magekind.
âLark, itâs natural to feel fear after what happened to you,â Gawain said gently. ââItâs not the lack of fear that defines braveryâ¦ââ
âââ¦Itâs doing the job.â Yeah, Iâve heard Arthur give that speech, too.â
âItâs not just a speech.â
âI know that.â Lark squared her fragile shoulders and met his gaze. âThereâs something else you need to know. Youâre probably expecting me to give youâ¦â Her voice trailed off, then strengthened. ââ¦blood. Youâve got a right to that. Iâm a Maja. Iâve got a duty to feed Magi, especially a Magus whoâs my partner. Butâ¦â
âThe idea of letting a vampire touch you makes you break out in a cold sweat.â He could taste it in the air.
Her eyes narrowed with sudden determination. âIâm not going to let that stop me. Iâll do it. I know youâll smell the fearâyouâre probably smelling it nowâbut that doesnât mean you have to stop.â
He looked her in the eye. âI appreciate that, love, but thereâs no way in hell Iâd ever drink from a woman whoâs as frightened as you are right now.â
âThis is not about chivalry. This is about not letting myself be crippled by one of those vampire bastards.â She spoke through her teeth. âHeâs not going to win this.â
Gawain shook