Free Harley's Choice by Shaelin Ferra

next to me.
    “In fact, to give some flattery to you, most
of the past girlfriends were short brunettes with brown eyes.”
Carson looked directly at me, “but not just any brown eyes, they
had to be a dark chocolate color and the hair had to have life.” He
said has he played with a stray curl.
    “Her body had to be slight so that we could
put our hands around her.” Kyle put said hands around my waist.
“Her skin had to be soft,” he rubbed the skin under his hands.
    “She had to have spunk, and a wonderful
laugh.” Carson said in seriousness.
    I of course had to ask. “How many
girlfriends have you had like that?”
    “None,” Carson eyes bore into mine, “yet.” I
melted a bit more.
    “So how many girlfriends came close?”
    “We have had two that came anywhere close to
matching our list and would be willing to let us…share, most of
them preferred one to the other so they would spend more time with
that choice.”
    “Then of course Carson became famous and the
girls were different and we never considered sharing, not with him
in the lime light.” Kyle lay on the bed and looked into my eyes.
“You see there was this girl we knew a long time ago and every
woman that came after needed to be her. Substitutes were accepted,
but never completely. We needed her,” he smiled, “we need you
Harley. Always have.”
    “Oh…” I didn’t know what else to say. I was
speechless. They have been spending the last ten years looking for
me. I was so confused I had so many emotions flowing through me
that I shut down. I slid out from under Carson who let me go and I
walked back to my room and shut the connecting door and took
another shower.
    I cried as the hot water ran down my body
leaving me red and raw like my eyes and emotions. I didn’t know
what to think. I have always loved them, even when I thought I
didn’t – I still did.
    I wanted them so many time throughout the
last ten years to hold me to sooth me to comfort me when I had a
bad day or when an assignment didn’t go right. I needed them there
and they were nowhere around! I flew blames and accusations at them
in my mind as I worked out my own feelings.
    I wanted to run back and curl up with them
and have them to tell me that they love me, to tell them that I
loved them. But I wouldn’t, I couldn’t as I told Carson this
morning I couldn’t bring someone I loved into my life without them
knowing everything and I couldn’t tell them everything.
    Carson told me he wanted to be a cop, maybe
his morals are strong when it comes to right and wrong, I knew mine
were slightly a skewed, ok, closer to totally wacked. What if they
won’t like me if I told them? Should I tell them? No of course not.
If the one thing that has been pounded into my head is that nothing
is more secret than my job, my life.
    The only person I could tell would be a
husband…and that was only after we were married.
    I remembered the sexual trainer I had while
going through training.
    I had just turned eighteen when I started
that training, I had been doing long distance jobs for a year and
after I turned eighteen I was told it was time to extend my
training.
    The first day of training she looked at me
and in stern voice said to me. ‘I’m supposed to turn you into a
seducer. I am in charge of making sure you can successfully get
close to marks in any way that needs be. But the biggest thing you
need to remember is that while you may give them your pussy; never
give them your true name or your life. You will guard that
information the way you have been guarding your virginity for the
last eighteen years.’
    Yeah I lost my virginity in training and was
taught what my body was capable of. No, I didn’t fall in love with
the man who taught me; I was already in love with Kyle and Carson.
I know it seems cold and calculating but I had a job to do. And
besides what was I going to do with my virginity anyways? I was not
what anyone would call beautiful then so after they talked