twenty dollar note from my bag.â He gave no sign of having heard and after a pause she said, âWhy did you take it?â
He finished the last of his meal, pushed the plate from him and leaned back. Now he looked at his mother, his face as expressionless as her own. âI needed twenty dollars.â
âItâs not everyoneâd steal from his own mother.â She said it quite quietly, but her voice held the same metallic note as her sonâs.
He gave the smallest of shrugs. âYou didnât need it the way I did.â
âIt was mine. You should learn to leave other peopleâs things alone.â
A kind of smile crossed his face very briefly. âWhy? I take what I need. Never any more.â
âEveryone has to learn to be honest sometime.â She was still looking at him dispassionately, as if he were divided from her by the lens of a microscope. âSooner or later you get caught.â
âNot me.â They looked at one another over the old manâs head. âYou donât have to worry about me.â
âI never worry about you. Iâm just telling you. Itâs your father I worry about. Poor old man.â
As if it were his cue, the old man put down his knife and fork and leaned back. âI canât eat no more. I donât feel too good.â
âYou donât have to. And you never feel too good. Iâll get your sweets. You like them.â She swept up their plates and put them in the sink.
While her back was towards them Terry said, âDadâs honest and look where itâs got him.â
A plate of stewed fruit and custard landed on the table in front of him and over his head his mother said, âYou know quite well that has nothing to do with it. Your father has bad luck. Always has had.â
âLazy, I call it.â
The old manâs pride was pricked, and he said with sudden animation, âYou think I get my war pension for nothing? Youâd like me to work my guts out, wouldnât you? Whatâs left of them.â
âItâs smoking ruined your guts, not the war.â
Before the old man could reply Mrs. Nicholson said, âIf weâd got that piece of land he offered for heâd be OK now. A couple of petrol pumps up on the roadâd set us up nicely, without his having to work the way he does.â
âWork!â The tone was a worse insult than the word.
Mrs. Nicholson swung round to her son. âYou talk like that when you know what the word means. Your father doesnât live on the dole. Sometimes I think something got left out of you when you was born.â
Terry looked at his mother for a long time, and when he looked at her he remained absolutely still. Then, as if he had not heard, he took a long breath and said, âWeâll get your bit of land yet. Youâll see.â
âNot until old Lovett dies we wonât.â Mrs. Nicholson sat down and attacked her fruit and custard.
âThatâs what I meant.â He pushed his chair back and got up. The spoon fell with a clatter into the empty plate. At the door he said, âSee you.â For a moment a curious, loaded look passed between him and his mother. Then the screen door banged and he was gone. Before the old man had finished his pudding the sound of the motorbike was fading up the road.
Chapter 8
Autumn moved into winter. The weather turned wet and cold with now and then a crackle of sleet in the wind, and for several weeks Catherine did not go to the garden. But the tensions of home that had sent her there in the days of spring and summer continued. She knew that she caused them. She knew that as soon as she left the house and as long as she stayed away tension evaporated. The knowledge was a load she found hard, sometimes impossible, to carry. It also made her bad-tempered.
Why did she have to tell them at breakfast sheâd heard a man coming out of the bank say that her father was the