Free Falling Idols by Brian Hodge Page B

name’s Willy. But no, cuz, I ain’t Bricklord. You’d know that if you’s from here. But you not.”
    That singular accusation again, which he could not argue. He was here by choice, they by circumstance. No bridge in the world could span that gulf.
    “You think you doing us a favor, slapping this shit on the walls? The rainbows and clouds and stars and flowers and shit? Think you doing a favor for all us niggers and spics and slopes and poor white trash?” Willy didn’t speak so much out of anger as perceived fact. When Leo didn’t answer he went on. “Well you not . You can paint up a garbage can real pretty, and all you got’s still a garbage can. You didn’t change shit. I don’t know where you from, but that ain’t the way it works here.”
    Calvin had been staring at his feet while this went on, a sad twist in the corner of his mouth. The boy disagreed, apparently, but knew better than to contradict. Not now, not here.
    “What if it’s not for you in the first place?” Leo said. “What if it’s just for me?”
    Willy shook his head again, as if he’d been pounding his skull against the wall rather than looking at it. “Just give it up, painter. You beat by something you won’t never understand. You beat before you even started.”
    Leo stood mutely, watching as Willy tossed a friendly arm around Calvin’s shoulders and steered him away. Calvin managed one more quick glance at the wall, at the sweat and paint and hopes that brightened it, at Leo’s eyes. And then they were gone.
    Along with whatever impetus Leo had to keep working.
    He packed up and called it an early night.

    *

    Leo finished two nights later. It took him scarcely an hour, blending lighter and darker shades of green with touches of black until the second rose’s stem swept down to the foundation of the building. With neither run nor stray dribble to mar, to detract.
    Then the calm appraisal of elation, standing in the presence of a work brought to completion. Brainchild’s maturity, left to stand on its own. There was no other feeling like that in all the world.
    Still stung by Willy’s words from two nights ago, at heart Leo had to suspect Willy may have been right. But sense of duty was greater still, to contribute something to this blighted cityscape. If beauty was in the eye of the beholder, perhaps hopelessness was, as well. Even a fool had to start somewhere.
    Leo returned the spray cans to his new nylon bag, then backed up for a broader view of the roses. Magnificent, his master work so far. Dawn was too far away, that first kiss of sunlight when this completed work might shine, and he wanted to be back here for the moment, so he could see, so they all could see.
    Except…
    They all were seeing right now. From the streets. From the sidewalk. From a scant few feet away, he noticed as he turned. Talk about losing yourself in your work — dozens of them had approached and he’d never heard. Standing motionless, staring. Young and ancient, black and white, Asian and Hispanic. Junkies. Winos. Mothers. Whores. A cop. Children. Dealers. Gangbangers. All of them half-lit by streetlights too few and weak to cut through much darkness on this edge of town.
    Leo gave them a queasy, gentle smile, feeling sick within because no one seemed to appreciate his efforts. Feeling sicker still when the faces did not change.
    Silence, except for the distant master mix of traffic and sirens, wailing babies and TVs blaring from open windows.
    Someone in the street hit the play button on a monstrous boom box, speakers blasting gangsta rap, here’s life as we know and live it, brutal and dirty. The savage four-four rhythm prompted many, those who could, to dance. Whirling, contorting, letting themselves go with abandon, circling around a teenage girl who swayed and knelt beside a squirming cloth bag.
    Leo, not liking this, not at all, saw no joy in the display. There was nothing of celebration in the movement, no release. It was darker,