into moody silence, I resumed the subject gently, and urged him to break his situation at once to his wife. He shook his head mournfully, but positively.
âBut how are you to keep it from her? It is necessary she should know it, that you may take the steps proper to the alteration of your circumstances. You must change your style of livingânay,â observing a pang to pass across his countenanceââdonât let that afflict you. I am sure you have never placed your happiness in outward shewâyou have yet friends, warm friends, who will not think the worse of you for being less splendidly lodged;âand surely it does not require a palace to be happy with Maryââ
âI could be happy with her,â cried he convulsively, âin a hovel!âI could go down with her into poverty and the dust!âI couldâI could âGod bless her!âGod bless her!ââ cried he, bursting into a transport of grief and tenderness.
âAnd believe me my friend,â said I stepping up and grasping him warmly by the handââbelieve me, she can be the same with you. Aye, moreâit will be a source of pride and triumph to herâit will call forth all the latent energies and fervent sympathies of her nature; for she will rejoice to prove that she loves you for yourself. There is in every true womanâs heart a spark of heavenly fire which lies dormant in the broad daylight of prosperity; but which kindles up, and beams and blazes in the dark hour of adversity. No man knows what the wife of his bosom isâno man knows what a ministering angel she isâuntil he has gone with her through the fiery trials of this world.â
There was something in the earnestness of my manner, and the figurative style of my language that caught the excited imagination of Leslie. I knew the auditor I had to deal with; and following up the impression I had made, I finished by persuading him to go home and unburthen his sad heart to his wife.
I must confess, notwithstanding all I had said, I felt some little solicitude for the result. Who can calculate on the fortitude of one whose whole life has been a round of pleasures?âHer gay spirits might revolt at the dark downward path of low humility suddenly pointed out before her, and might cling to the sunny regions in which they had hitherto revelled. Besides, ruin in fashionable life is accompanied by so many galling mortifications to which in other ranks it is a strangerâin short, I could not meet Leslie the next morning without trepidation. He had made the disclosure.
ââAnd how did she bear it?â
âLike an angel! It seemed rather to be a relief to her mind, for she threw her arms round my neck, and asked if this was all that had lately made me unhappyâbut, poor girl,ââadded he, âshe cannot realize the change we must undergo. She has no idea of poverty but in the abstractâshe has only read of it in poetry, where it is allied to love. She feels as yet no privationâshe suffers no loss of accustomed conveniences nor elegancies. When we come practically to experience its sordid cares, its paltry wants, its petty humiliationsâthen will be the real trial.â
âBut,â said I, ânow that you have got over the severest task, that of breaking it to her, the sooner you let the world into the secret the better. The disclosure may be mortifying, but then it is a single misery and soon over, whereas you otherwise suffer it in anticipation, every hour in the day. It is not poverty so much as pretence, that harrasses a ruined man. The struggle between a proud mind and an empty purseâthe keeping up a hollow shew that must soon come to an end. Have the courage to appear poor and you disarm poverty of its sharpest sting.ââOn this point I found Leslie perfectly prepared. He had no false pride himself, and as to his wife she was only anxious to conform to their
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