fatherâs knights are out on patrol on the other side of the forest. This isnât good.â Ela turned, catching the scared yellow aura of her maid. âYouâll be fine.â
âHow so?â Bertha squeaked.
âI plan to sneak past Father and offer myself in sacrifice to Os before he tears down the manor.â
Bertha stopped short. âOh? The last time ye thought to sacrifice yourself, ye got into a heap of trouble.â
Ela strode faster around the room. âYea, but this will be different. It will be glorious and an adventure worthy of one with my wild reputation.â
âBut miss, yeâre an innocent!â
âIâm a virgin, Bertha, not naïve.â Ela huffed andswitched Henry to her other shoulder. âAnd what better way to stop a curse than to find Boadiceaâs grave site and demand an end to the torment with her own spear? Hmm? Just thinkâan end to my nightmares. You know, theyâve just been getting worse.â
Bertha made a sympathetic sound at the back of her throat.
As the weeks had passed since Beltane eve, sheâd grown more and more exhausted. Meg refused to help her with another spell, saying it was too dangerous to play at magic. Ela was unable to get a decent nightâs sleep because her dreams were of detailed battle scenesâor Osbert. It was as if Boadicea herself wanted answers, and Ela was charged with finding them. Her gifts to heal had remained, as had her ability to see auras.
Only Os had been veiled to her, and she wanted to know why.
When she wasnât fighting the Roman army in her sleep, she was dreaming of Osâs faceâhis lips, eyes, his cool demeanor, his surprised laughter. He was a complex man, filled with honor. She was sorry that her father had thrown him from the manor.
Os never would have left her to spend the night in a boar pit.
She sighed. âThe Earl of Norfolk is bound to know more about Boadicea than what Osbert does. I will go and see what I can.â
A chosen few of the Montehue servants knew the Montehue secrets, and Bertha was one of them. âAye, my lady. But becareful ⦠youâve not been far from home before. And Sir Osbert is a handsome man, eh?â
Her face flushed. âI donât recall.â
Teasing, Bertha said, âA strong knight such as that could make a woman fall in love.â
âLove?â Ela huffed. âThere is more to a match than that.â She paced the floor.
âLove
. If I hadnât seen Gali and âTia have it, then I wouldnât believe in it at all.â
âNot just your sisters, my lady,â Bertha chided. âBut yer folks too.â
Tense, Ela fed Henry a piece of chicken left over from her morning meal. âAll right, let us be clear. I am surrounded by fools in love, and yet Iâve never felt the spark. It is not meant for me.â She thought of Osbertâs dark gold hair and blue-gray eyes and sighed. He was handsome, but he would never suit. Not if he was afraid of witches.
âBut what about children, my lady?â
âThereâs the problem with the curse, see? This is why I must end it with me. I would marry for children alone, but I lose my powers if I donât wed for love. Pah. I would wed to gain Father securityâbut then I lose my abilities that make me
me
. It is a ridiculous curse, and I am tired of it.â She snapped her fingers to Berthaâs pity-filled gaze. âStop looking at me like that.â
Henry chittered and then jumped from her shoulder to the bed.
Ela took a deep breath, patting her pockets to make sure her small knives were there, and then her leg, wheresheâd tied her short sword to her garter. âIt is time to go before Osbert and my father start fighting in earnest.â
Taking the stairs down two at a time, she peered out over the window casement. She expected to see her father and Osbert negotiating terms, since the battle between