Free Sepharad by Antonio Muñoz Molina

both feel their knees trembling. A piece of paper falls to the floor from one of the books, and the guard who picks it up identifies it as a letter from Stalin sent to Neumann in 1926. “Worse and worse,” murmurs the guard, folding it back again. The husband and wife’s knees touch, each with the identical tremble, like an ague that can’t be stopped. Outside the room, in the hotel corridors, as outside their windows, they begin to hear the faint sounds of people waking up, of the city coming to life before the first light of day.
The dawn came slowly behind the window curtains.
    In 1935, Professor Klemperer was let go from the university, but because of his status as a war veteran he continued to receive a small pension. It would be a few years before he would be forbidden to drive a car, own a radio or telephone, go to the movies, have a pet. Professor Klemperer and his wife, always in such delicate health, given to neuralgia and melancholy, liked cats and films, especially musicals, very much.
    They have been threatened, they know that at any moment they can be put under arrest or killed, but in the street the sunlight is the same as it always has been, cars drive by, stores are open, neighbors greet one another, mothers hold their children’s hands on the way to school and before they leave them at the fence in front of the entrance squat down to turn up the lapels of their overcoats or to wrap them more tightly in their mufflers and caps. One November day in 1936, Professor Klemperer, who was taking advantage of the forced leisure of his retirement to write a scholarly book on eighteenth-century French literature, arrived at the university library, but the librarian who had helped him every day for many years told him, with distress, that she was no longer authorized to lend the professor books, and that he shouldn’t come back anymore. You have been marked, sentenced. In the reading room you cannot enter now, people are bent in thought over opened volumes, under the soft light of the low, green-shaded
lamps. You go outside, knowing that your days are numbered, that you should seize what time you have left and flee, at least make the attempt, but the man at the kiosk sells you your newspaper just as on any other morning, the bus makes its usual punctual stops every few minutes, and then it seems to you that the curse is in you, something that makes you different from the others, more vulnerable, worse, unworthy of the normal life they’re enjoying, though you stubbornly believe that maybe it’s due to some error, some misunderstanding that will be cleared up in time. In May 1940, Professor Klemperer is denounced by a neighbor for not having properly closed his windows during a blackout; he is arrested and locked in a cell, but released after one week.
    Waiting for an inevitable disaster is worse than the disaster itself.
On September 1, 1936, Eugenia Ginzburg, a professor at the University of Kazan, a Communist leader, editor of a Party journal, and wife of a member of the Central Committee, receives the notice that she is forbidden to give classes. She is a young and enthusiastic mother of two small children, a fervent adherent of each and every one of the Party’s directives, convinced that the country is swarming with saboteurs and spies in the service of imperialism, traitors whom it is right to unmask and punish with the greatest firmness. Every day in meetings of cells and committees, in the newspapers, on the radio, new arrests are announced, and Eugenia Ginzburg is surprised by some of them but remains convinced of their necessity and justice.
    One day she learns that she herself is under suspicion: nothing very serious, it seems at first, but it is irritating, and even unpleasant, a mistake that must eventually be resolved since it is unthinkable that the Party would accuse an innocent, and she, Eugenia Ginzburg, does not find in herself the least shadow of guilt, not the