Free All That I Need (Secret Desires) by Ava Catori Page B

loved his touch, loved being in Austin’s arms, and when we connected intimately, it brought us even closer.
    Each movement led to the next, and soon a river of desire was unleashed. Kneeling between my husband’s legs, I took him into my mouth and pleasured him. Slipping his manhood between my lips, I teased and tempted him, wanting to help him reach ecstasy. Listening to his groans filled me with purpose, and as he finally peaked I caught his seed, tasting his saltiness on my tongue.
    Austin’s hands wrapped around my head, and tangled in my hair. His breathing ragged, he finally let go and dropped back, lying on the bed. I smiled seeing his contentment and knowing I was responsible.
    Climbing on the bed, I pressed my body to his and held on. His warm body against my own had me hungry for more. Austin knew what I needed, and rolled over, turning us together so that I was now lying back. Sliding between my legs, he pleasured me intimately with his mouth. The heat of his tongue playing with me took me to the edge. I came with his face between my thighs clasped tightly around him, as the orgasm ripped through me.
    In the moments that followed, he was finally ready to share and spoke softly.
    “Kate, there’s something I need to talk to you about,” he started.
    I wanted him to wait; afraid it would ruin the mood. I could tell by the tone of his voice, and yet was curious to know what was inside of him. Why now? What’s going on?
    “What is it?” I asked, lifting my fingers to his hairline, and tracing the edge of his face. His hair was soft, and as I ran my fingers into it, I waited for him to continue.
    “I’m not sure how to say this. I’ve been trying to find a way to tell you, but there’s no easy way.” His voice showed hesitation.
    My stomach lurched. I prepared myself the best I was able, uncertain what he wanted to tell me. As much as I wanted to know, I was afraid of the words that might come out.
    “Go on,” I said, guarding myself.
    “I’m not happy,” he started.
    “Oh God, are you leaving me?” He’s not happy, I knew it, I should have seen it coming. What was this weekend about? Everything inside of me seized up, my shoulders tensing, my chest feeling tight.
    “No! No, this isn’t about that kind of stuff,” he said, realizing I was reading into what he was saying. “We’re fine, I love you. It’s not you, it’s my work.”
    “Your work?” I was surprised. He’d never said a word about it. After finishing his classes, and then getting the apprenticeship, he was near to having his own business soon. He seemed content, and never said much about it either way, so it through me for a loop.
    “I’m not happy. This isn’t the career for me. I’ve known for a while, but I didn’t have the heart to just stop since it’d taken me so long to get started again.” He looked almost embarrassed to admit this fact.
    “You don’t have to be a locksmith, baby. You can do whatever you want. As long as there’s some form of stability, I don’t mind if you change careers.”
    I was relieved; I thought it would be much worse. I could deal with a change there. When he first started talking, I got this queer feeling in my belly that ran up and hit my chest. I was so afraid to hear him say he was leaving me. A huge sigh of relief ran through me when I heard it was about his job. I can handle this, heck I can handle just about anything as long as Austin’s in my life.
    “See, the thing is that I think I’ve found something. My buddy Derek, he’s one of the guys I was over in the sandbox with, one of the soldiers…” he hesitated again. After a long pause, he finally restarted, “The thing is, he’s got this private security detail, and needs a few more guys.” He rushed to get out the next part, “The pay is great, way more than I’m making now.”
    “Sounds great,” I said dreamily, realizing everything was going to be okay after all. I’d made a big deal of it in my mind for