out of his fingers, contemplating whether to return the acknowledgment. Â Instead of waving back, he then chose to walk toward me with a indifferent gliding gait, stopping halfway to light up a cigarette with a stick match, the sulfur flare of it lending brief life to his otherwise hidden eyes. Â I wasnât sure what I saw in those eyes, but it didnât register as caution or fear. Â And yet now he had stopped, as if heâd made a mistake. Â Or maybe he was waiting to see what Iâd do next?
I knocked twice sharply on the window.
At that, the man blew smoke at me. Â The smoke drifted out like the slow-mo blast of a shotgun. Â Then he seemed to come to a decision, and shuffled quickly all the way to the door. Â His eyes studied mine with a reptilian-like magnetism. Â Another long three seconds without motion as I considered the possibilities of the manâthe broad, vacant face, the V-shaped neck, the well developed arms and upper body, which gave way to a slight paunch. Â He was a hairy ape, too. Â In the U of his drooping tank top grew a clot of bunched black hair. Â The stuff was alive on his arms, thick on his legs, and probably grew in his ears too. Â It had almost connected his eyebrows.
Dumb after all, I concluded. Â Thank God. Â Only the eyes gave me trouble. Â They were snakeâs eyes, and shone steadily, like a fresh corpse or a mobster going to a hit. Â I made a circular motion with one hand, and it seemed to revive the man. Â He pulled out some keys, and opened the door, blocking entry with his linebacker body.
âYeah?â he asked me with an almost guttural voice.
âHey, listen,â I said, my own voice sounding weaker than Iâd ever heard it. Â âThere any place to stay in this town?â
âThereâs Mabelâs,â he responded flatly.
âNo, I mean without the roaches.â
He huffed with a casual smile, as if in memory. Â Then he twirled his keys, thinking. Â But thinking seemed a chore he preferred to do without. Â âThatâs about it,â he concluded. Â ââCourse thereâs a Motel Six in Creston.â
âCar broke down,â I told him. Â âCan you drive me there? Â Iâll pay you.â
His face sagged under its own weight, like muscles do under the influence of certain relaxants, or after chugging a pitcher of Long Island iced tea. Â Then the face tightened again when he arrived at a figure. Â âThirty bucks?â
I nodded. Â âSure, fine.â
âOf course,â he suggested, pausing to glance behind him, âfor that, you can sleep here. Â Got an apartment in the back. Â Plus a spare place to sleep, separate from mine.â
I looked beyond him at the wide, bright door back there, wondering how many miles it was to Creston, exactly. Â âCan I . . . see it?â I asked hesitantly, just before considering shower or toilet facilities, and thereby regretting my request.
âWhy not,â he said, and turned.
âWait,â I said, backpedaling.
âWhat is it?â
I thought about renting another car in Creston. Â But how would that look? Â Then I thought about just how good a hot shower in a clean roach free motel would feel. Â Then again, would this big ape tell the Sheriff where heâd dropped me? Â Finally, I thought about just asking where I could find the Sheriff, and getting this over with tonight. Â But would I really be able to live with myself, going back to Virginia empty-handed to face Winsdon or Hepker ?
âNothing,â I muttered. Â âJust . . . you have to promise not to tell anyone about me.â
âOh yeah?â Â He turned back to me, his upper arm muscles flexing. Â âAnd why is that?â
âWell,â I paused, formulating a lie I thought he might believe, âmy ex-wife is kinda looking for me. Â Sheâs