good for her health.
Clarine knocked on the door and opened it. âThatâs enough,â she said, staring with distaste at the broken-down spectacle that once was the perfectly self-possessed Mickey Knight.
I took my crutch and led Clarine out of the room. âClarine, what should we do, sheâs heartbroken.â
âGotta have one to bust one,â Clarine said, chuckling at her own little joke.
â Clarineâ I loved Clarine, but I hated the way she loved to hate Mickey Knight.
âWell, which one is it anyway? Mattâs friend Charles, Christopher Bridges, or the nice boy, Thomas?â
Mickey wailed from the bedroom.
âClarine!â I cried. âHush up!â
âYour knee is not so hurt I canât wash your mouth out anymore.â
I remembered that old tough love routine of hers, and apologized.
âWell, she doesnât look so good,â said Clarine, sulking a little. âIâve a mind to call her family.â
âYou do that and things will start to die!â That was Mickey Knight, from the bedroom.
I hopped back in and closed the door. âMickey? Are you okay?â
She was sitting up in bed, brushing her hair. She looked beautiful again, like one of those movie stars who sits up in bed, brushing her hair. âIâm fine. But I donât understand why your mother doesnât deep-six that maid.â
â Mickeyâ I loved Mickey, but I hated the way she loved to hate Clarine.
Then I got the whole story out of her. Thomas had told her he was now in love with someone else, a beautiful, sweet girl who was all woman. When the girl turned sixteen he was going to fuck her and marry her, but not in that order.
âDid he really say that, Mickey? Did he use that word?â
âOh, Boyce, donât be so naive. Of course not. Heâs a gentleman.â A little leftover sob escaped from her after that.
Mickey had pressed Thomas for the name of the girl. Though at first he refused to disclose it, in the end he blurted it out. Naturally, it was Jo, the other Mickey.
âDoes Jo know about this?â I was thinking, you know. Canadian tennis. How that wretched game was going to ruin the neighborhood.
âYeah. Sheâs home, thinking about it. But I didnât kill Jo. Itâs him I want to die.â
I didnât blame her for not killing Jo.
âBut you know what?â she said, putting the finishing touches on her hair. âIâm going to get him back?â
She would, too. Every boy dumped Mickey for Jo. Just not for long.
âI mean, fear not.â
After Mickeyâs amazing recovery from her alarming emotional breakdown, she said maybe she should rest before trying to make me over. So we sat around talking, for hours.
By late afternoon, assorted Buicks and visiting cars were doing their standard Saturday comings and goings up and down the driveway. Dusk fell. Down past the long front lawn, the lights came up with the low lamps, cozily leading the way to the house. Mother and Dad ducked their heads in to say good-bye, on their way to a party. Matt came by and said âHi.â He took one trip around my room, with one eye on Mickey Knight the whole time, and left. Clarine came, and, as if she were feeding something evil in a cage, cautiously slid a tray of sandwiches in along the floor, then quickly closed the door. Lucy, then Luke, came to dutifully kiss me good night. The only one who didnât stop by was Cabot.
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It was an almost heroic feat, to sustain a dialogue as long as we did. We punctuated, or accented, it by going from the bed to the vanity table to apply Mickeyâs makeup. Leaning shoulder to shoulder at the mirror, the mascara, lipstick, and eyeliner became our alternate tools of expression; our heightened color, blackened eyes, reddened lips, visible evidence of the depth of our search for meaning. And we hadnât even gotten