friend tellingyou he canât sleep and then finally deciding you believe him has the same effect as not needing to sleep and not being able to, at least for a little while.
Eventually, the sun has risen. I can hear Ericâs parents rustling around downstairs.
At some point I tell him I should go home. I am never away from home for this long consecutively, and before Eric, I was barely away from home at all, but because of my brother being my brother, I know how long my dad can stand one of his offspring not being around and not checking in at all. Itâs not when anyone normalâs parents start to worry, itâs more a time about twelve hours after normal peopleâs parents start to worry that my dad realizes he isnât worried and thatâs what starts to worry him.
âWhen was the last time you saw your brother?â heâll ask me.
âTuesday night.â
And I think in his head he starts up an imaginary conversation with a custody judge or my mom or the cop who comes by to tell him they found my brother floating in the canal after not quite being able to jump it with his car, and realizes that for the sake of looking not-so-bad in that imaginary future conversation he should probably start to worry, or go through the phone-dialing motions worried people go through, though he knows weâre okay.
Phones are like these talismans for me and my brother and my dad. Like, as long as we have our phones on us, my brother and I, there is no way we could be hurt or kidnapped or impaled on anything. The one or two times Iâve been out of the house and needed to call and let him know Iâd be out the house longer have gone like this:
âHey, Dad?â
âHello?â
âHey, Iâll be late tonight.â
âOkay. Got your phone on you?â
âYep.â
âAlright. Be safe.â
âBye.â
âBye.â
We have the same kind of phone and weâre all on the same phone plan. I know full well that when I call him from my phone my name shows up, indicating that Iâm calling from my phone, and that in order to be doing that, I must have my phone on me. Itâs so dumb I think with any other kind of dad it would be a dad joke. But my dad doesnât joke so much as he goes to the gym all the time.
I get up off the floor of Ericâs room. âIt was nice having someone to stay up with,â he says.
When I get home at ten or so on Saturday morning my brotherâs car isnât there. Itâs probably wrapped around a pole or he got arrested for lighting trash cans on fire and rolling them into traffic last night or heâs at the morning youth mass with Cathy and Alan and Tits, whoâs Jewish but goes because of peer pressure. I go to my room and lock the door and fall asleep on top of my sheets with my clothes on and when I wake up itâs dark outside and I have one of those weird is-it-morning-what-day-is-it half-awake slept-the-day-away feelings, and I remember what Eric told me. I try to think whether it was a dream or not, and then I remember that it wasnât, and I think that Ericâs been awake this whole day while Iâve been asleep, and Ericâs been awake since Iâve known him, and Ericâs been awake since he was born.
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5
Eric always insists that our characters have a weakness. The Thragnacian hell-beast has a soft and glowing underbelly which Martian Praetoreous can hit with his arm-mounted crossbow. Being cybernetic, the AltraTroops are susceptible to biohacking, an arcane art practiced by the laptop monks who dwell in The Spoke, an aborted half-constructed space platform. The Man is the only character without a weakness. He is holographic and infinitely self-replicating. No one knows where he is or what he is or if heâs even human and you canât kill him because itâs very possible thereâs nothing there to kill.
I live in a world where what Eric told me is
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