Free More Than Enough (Enough #2) by Kate Daniels Page A

heard you when I’ve gotten out of class early. Do you know how fucking much that hurts? You don’t. Because you wouldn’t be concerned about how Bray feels while I’m drowning in agony just watching the two of you. He has you, Carter. He touches you anytime he wants, and I’ve got nothing. Just to be able to look and talk to you is the highlight of my shitty day. I’m sorry that I lost my damn mind and tried to kiss you, but I wish that you and Brayden would try to understand how hard this whole thing has been for me.
    The only two people I’ve got in the world are with each other. Sometimes when we are all three together, I feel like the two of you don’t even see me. You both seem to think that I can just move on and find another girl to love. But could Brayden have moved on from you or you from him. It’s not as easy as what you two want it to be. And you’re the only dream I’ve ever really had so some of me doesn’t even want to just let go of it. Just because you don’t love me the way I love you, doesn’t mean I love you any less. It just makes everything hurt a hell of a lot more.”
    Tears are streaming down her face, and I can tell that she’s hurting for me. I’ve told her now how much pain she’s caused, and she can hardly stand it. C arter is everything that is loving and kind, and she hates to hurt the people that she loves. I can already see the regret on her face.
    She walks towards me with her arms out, and I wrap mine around her. I just hold her close and let myself cry. I know that she’ll never be mine, and I have to accept that. If I don’t Brayden will take her away from me, and nothing could be worse than that.
    Brayden walks into us holding each other and crying. And I can tell he switches to protective mode immediately. “What the hell is going on? Kell, why is Carter crying? What did you fucking do?” He tears her out of my arms as he’s asking questions and lifts her up in his. I decide to confess that I kissed her now so Carter doesn’t have to try to handle it later when she’s on her own with him.
                  I look right at my brother, and just say it, “Brayden, I kissed Carter. I’m sorry. I just couldn’t help myself. She pulled back immediately. But I told her how much it hurts me to watch her and you together, and that I love her. That’s the way I feel, and I just can’t pretend to the two of you anymore that I’m not in fucking agony when I see you together.”
                  I see Brayden ball his fists and his face tighten, and I can tell he’s trying to hold himself back from attacking me right here. I know we’ll have to deal with this later between us. He isn’t holding back for me but for Carter. We both know that she’s already suffering from hurting me, and if we fight, she would just be broken up about it.
                  I feel better now that I put it all out there, and I know that the situation in the room is not going to get better tonight so I decide to head out. I start packing my stuff when Bray comes over to me and says coldly, “Don’t worry about leaving. Carter and I will head to the condo. You can stay here. Don’t worry about us though. We might stay there for the week. We’ll still attend classes and practice, but I need some distance from you right now.”
                  I understand why my brother is angry, but it doesn’t take any of my anger or resentment away. No matter what I do, he’s the one that has the best thing in both of our lives as his. I’m never going to feel bad for him when he has her. He slams a few things around and keeps Carter on the other side of the room. Finally, they’re ready to go. Carter says softly, “Bye Keller,” and they head out the door.
                  Even with them gone, the room is suffocating me, and I have to get out before the dead silence in the room gets to me. I dress in my running shorts and decide to try to