Free Until There Was You by Stacey Harrison Page A

thought of this as a business arrangement is YOU! I
have poured my heart out to you, something I have never done
before, I do everything in my power to make sure you are safe and
happy. Yet you base our relationship off one angry, stupid comment.
Now who is fucking with whose feelings Alexis?' How can she think
that I would ever use her? Why can't she see I am falling for her?
This is real for me.
    'Where is my dress?' She
demands, eyes blank so I can't tell what she is thinking but I know
it ain't good.
    'I don't know, where did you
take it off?'
    'Not your dress, MY dress. The
one I arrived in?' She states clearly. Why would she want that
ripped and tattered thing, then it hits me like a tonne of
bricks......
    'You're leaving me?' I breath,
the pain unfurling in my chest.
    'I was never yours to keep.' She
hits back, void of any emotions and it is my undoing. I give up the
fight, broken and rejected.
    'I threw it out it was ripped to
shreds if you remember, if you're leaving at least wrap up warm.
It's cold out, don't worry about the clothes you earned them.' I
say wanting to hurt her like she is doing to me and her mask slips
for a split second.
    I leave the room with a pain in
my heart, I can't watch her leave me and I don't care what she
takes. I bought it all for her anyway, for her new life with me. It
all sounds like a sick joke to me now. I go down the hall to my
office and take the Brandy out of my desk as I sit in the chair
just the lamp lighting the darkness.
    'I was just making sure you got
your money's worth.'
    'I was never yours to keep.'
    Her words keep replaying over
and over in my head driving me insane, tearing me apart. What can I
do when she never felt a thing for me? The rational side of me
knows that's a lie, it was in her eyes when we made love, in her
voice when she said my name. God I am driving myself crazy, all
because I am in love with her and I didn't just tell her that. What
difference would it make any way? She is leaving me and I gave up
too fucking easily.
    'Lexi!' I shout as I run to her
room.
    'Lexi, I Love You!' I shout as I
push the open the door to an empty room.
    I am too late...
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Chapter Fifteen
    Lexi
    I walk out of Liam's house
wearing the same sweater and jeans outfit I wore earlier, it's
funny how life can change in a few hours. When I first wore this
outfit it made me feel amazing and new, yet now I am wearing it
again I feel more empty and broken than I ever had before. I hurry
down the drive way before Dem can notice me.
    I don't want him to see me
crying or ask me where he can take me when the blunt truth of it
all is I have nowhere to go. I just keep walking and walking,
thinking of nothing in particular because if I do all allow myself
to think, I can think about is Liam and how much I hurt him and
that is too much to bare right now.
    I stop to rest, my body is so
tired as I have been walking for hours on end going nowhere, there
is nowhere I belong. I give in to the sobs that rack my body, my
life is a complete mess. I am so alone I wonder how my Mother is
doing? Whether she even misses me? Obviously not because it has
been four and a half years and not a peep from her. I wonder if I
have a brother or sister? Do they know about me? Has she abandoned
them too?
    'Well look what I have found.' I
hear an all too familiar voice that sends chills down my spine.
Mike......Oh shit, how has he found me?
    'You know I almost didn't
recognize you there whore, with ya fancy hair and expensive
clothes.' He taunts and fear won't let me move.
    RUN......My mind screams but my
body won't comply as he takes threatening steps towards me.
    'Where's ya hotshot boyfriend
now.....See through you already did he?' He laughs and my face
gives away my hurt. 'Oh he didn't he, I told you I was the only one
that would ever put up with you. It's a shame though, I was hoping
to return the favour.' He points to his face that is