his bodyââ
âMother â¦â
Pushing himself away from the table with an exasperated sigh and a scraping of heavy chair legs against stone, Kelson stood and glanced at Nigel and Meraude, who had remained notably silent throughout this last exchange.
âFortunately, the subject of Llewellâs issue has been rendered academic,â Kelson said patiently, catching Nigelâs eye in signal that it was time to make their escape. âNor have I any wish to discuss the matter further this evening. The commanders of my northern army leave for Cassan tomorrow morning, and there are matters Nigel and I must discuss before then. Uncle, would you please make your apologies to the ladies? We still have work ahead of us before we sleep.â
He could only admire Nigelâs coolness as the older man rose to take his leave. Though he knew Nigel trusted him and his Deryni colleagues implicitly, and they him, he must have harbored some apprehension about the âworkâ still ahead of them, if only for the fact that he was the object of that work and did not know what would be done to him. Still, he showed no glimmer of anything but relaxed duty as he pulled a cloak around his shoulders and advised Meraude not to wait up.
âYou know how long Kelsonâs staff meetings sometimes last, darling,â he told her. âWe could be half the night. You and the little one need your rest.â
Meraude smiled and laid one hand on her swollen abdomen as her husband followed Kelson out, glancing aside at Jehana wistfully when the door had closed behind them. Jehana looked a bit taken aback, as if she could not quite believe how Kelson had managed his escape.
âHeâs become quite the young man while you were away, hasnât he?â Meraude said.
Jehana lowered her gaze. âI hardly recognize him,â she whispered. âHeâs so stern and warlikeâand grown-up.â
âChildren do that,â Meraude answered gently. âIâm having to face the same realization about Conall. And Rory comes of age in the fall as wellâthough fourteen-year-olds still have a little time for being boys yet.â
âMine didnât,â Jehana murmured.
âTrue. But Kelson was already a king by the time he turned fourteen. For Rory to face a similar circumstance would require tragedy indeed. No, Rory is my little boy for yet a while longerâand Payne, of course. And soon thereâll be the new baby for loving. But I do hope this one will be a girl.â
Jehana grimaced. âA girl, to become a pawn one day for a royal marriage?â
âA girl, to marry where her heart dictates, if God wills it,â Meraude replied. âWith three older brothers to carry on the line, I see little reason to force her into any marriage she would not want. Or perhaps she will prefer marriage with the Church. I gather that would not displease you.â
Jehana smiled bitterly, tracing a fingertip through a small spill of ale on the table before her. âWould that my marriage had been with the Church, and saved the passing of the taint I carry within me,â she murmured.
âAnd what of Kelson, if you had?â Meraude countered. âAside from the fact that Kelson would not have been Kelson, given another mother, where would he have been without your inheritance and protection when he had to face Charissa?â
âHe might have died,â Jehana conceded. âBut at least he would have been human, his soul unsullied by the Deryni curse I placed upon him by bearing him.â
Shaking her head, Meraude pushed herself heavily back from the table. âYou wonât let go of it, will you? Youâre Deryni, Jehana. Nothing you can do will change that. But perhaps it doesnât have to be a curse. Surely itâs possible some good might come of it.â
âI fear you listen far too much to my son,â Jehana said sadly. âIt is a curse,