away.
I will never let Din Tairin see me cry.
CHAPTER
10
~ Kinsey Lea ~
♥
The last few days have been rough.
I miss Din Tairin.
The house is not the same with him at work. I look around his office and miss his presence. My heart aches even though I will it not to. I clench my hands in agony.
I can’t let him get under my skin.
Too late for that , my foolish heart whispers. I plop down in his chair and just inhale his scent. Nothing smells like him. His unique aroma travels through my body causing my clit to pulse in need. Oh yes, he's getting to me. Deep down I know it's wrong. Maybe one day I'll have the strength to ignore my attraction to him. But today is not that day.
I place my hands on his desk and then rest my forehead on the cool surface. Cool is what I need. I need my heart and body to be cool not hot and burning for him.
When will I learn? Nobody can be trusted. Everybody leaves.
My lungs expand as I breathe deeply of his scent. Heat swirls through me. “No, I can’t continue to let him get to me.”
Moving out of his office, my feet trudge along the cool stone floor. I go into the living room and glance out the glass wall leading to the backyard. Oh yes, my friends are back there.
I can't help but smile as I head toward the glass. Several of the blue birds are flying around looking into the house. I take the last few steps and press my hand against the glass. When they recognize me, they immediately fly over and blink innocently. Camleons’ dark green eyes standout underneath their fuzzy unibrows. The birds are so flipping cute.
I laugh as I watch their crazy antics. Oh yes, birds are the best kind of friends ever. They never let you down. They don't lie and they don’t lead you on. They are just who they are. Fun and free.
I can easily love birds. I wish I could love Din Tairin. But I know that is not safe. Experience has taught me that the birds are way better. They are altogether different. They are my true friends. My brightly feathered friends make me laugh as I watch them flying around blinking their eyes and sometimes pecking at the glass near my hand. I long to go outside and feed them. If only Din Tairin trusted me enough to let me outside I could feed them every day.
I see one of the birds looking behind me. My heart races and then pounds out a crazy beat. A second later I hear a noise behind me and turn. Din Tairin is watching me.
He's home. My foolish heart is extremely happy. I can't stop feeling so drawn to him although I wish I could. Maybe I should just learn to enjoy the moment. Enjoy him while I can. Longing, hope, distrust, love—they all circle through me over and over. I wish I could get off this road that leads to nowhere.
“Come, little seema. It's time to add your palm print to the security system." His golden eyes darken a second. "Are you ready?"
A thrill runs through my body. "Yes." He trusts me. Oh yes, this is flipping great.
I follow him to his office. Happiness is pinging through me. Until it isn't. What if he's only adding my handprint because he hopes I will leave? Is he tired of me? I push the negative thoughts away when he smiles down at me. His handsome face doesn’t show any signs of dislike or frustration.
He has me place my hand on a dark pad. I see a light glide through the material. After a moment a small beep sounds and his smile widens.
“Let’s go try it out.”
His enthusiasm has me agreeing and hurrying after him. It he wasn’t so tall I’d be able to keep up with him better.
At the door, I place my hand on the metal. The cool texture reminds me not to let this kind act make me fall any further for him. A slight movement has me smiling up at him. “It worked. Thank you. I love feeding the birds.”
“I know. That’s why I have a surprise for you, little seema.”
“What?” My foolish heart races at the thought of him
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