should have thrown her arms around Momâs neck and whispered, I missed you. I love you. Iâm so glad youâre home. But Lori squeezed her eyes shut and pretended to be asleep.
Sheâd already gotten a good-night kiss from Gram. She didnât need another one.
Now Lori sneaked a glance over at Mom, in the middle seat. Mom had her head back and her eyes closed, and Lori wondered if she might have even fallen asleep. Every few seconds she winced, as if she had a headache or bad dreams.
Lori figured she was responsible for any headache Mom had. And probably the bad dreams, too.
You ought to be ashamed of yourself, Lori thought to herself, but it was Gramâs voice she heard in her head: I didnât raise you to be rude. If it really had been Gram talking, she would have thrown in a Bible verse, tooâabout disobedient children getting what they deserve.
I wasnât disobedient, Lori thought. I was just . . . curious. I was just asking questions.
But she knew how sheâd sounded, all day long. Even Chuck had been giving her strange looks. Lori went to school with some kids who believed in demon possessionâ really believed in it, brought it up every time there was any in-class discussionâand Lori briefly wondered if she could blame that. She thought about touching Momon the arm and apologizing: I donât know why I was such a brat today. Iâm sorry. Maybe I was possessed by demons.
Maybe she would have apologizedânot with the excuse, just flat outâif Mom had really answered any of her questions. But she hadnât. Sheâd changed the subject, sheâd evaded, sheâd given those one-sentence half replies: âNo, I donât want you to marry young.â âNo, I donât regret marrying your dad.â âYour father liked the name Lori.â They were answers that pushed Lori away. They built walls, not windows.
They made Lori angrier than ever.
The plane was taking off now. Mom opened her eyes and leaned away from Lori, pointing out sights on the ground to Chuck. Their heads totally blocked the view for Lori, but she didnât care. She hated Chicago. Sheâd been terrible there. Her face burned just thinking about it.
She thought about what her friends would ask her when she got home: Was the shopping great? Were the guys cute? Did you have fun? And sheâd give the same kind of nonanswers Mom had given her.
Suddenly Lori wished fervently that she was back home with her friends, right now. She could be on the phone gossiping about Jackie Stiresâs pool party, figuring out whose parents could drive them to the movies on Saturday night. Everything at home seemed so simple suddenly. There were rules there. You cleaned up after yourself. You didnât flirt with other girlsâ boyfriends. You ignored Mike and Joeyâs roughhousing unless it looked likethey were going to break something. You kept your eyes on your own paper when you were taking tests at school. You said, âPleaseâ and âThank you,â and you didnât tell anyone what you were really thinking.
Why had Lori suddenly felt there were no rules in Chicago?
She winced as the plane turned sharply, knocking her against the arm of her seat. Then the plane leveled off, following a straight path.
They were on their way to Atlanta now. Maybe Atlanta would be better.
Mom had gotten Chuck those airsickness bracelets, and he had them on, but it didnât matter: there was no way he could be sick now. He wasnât even scared, and here he was, staring straight down at the ground, thousands of feet below him.
If I die now, I wouldnât care. I would die happy, he thought. But he would care. There was a whole world heâd discovered today, and he intended to see more of it.
Come on, plane, donât go down, he thought, as if he could help the pilots. But the plane was in no danger of going down. It climbed up and up and up, until all
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