Free The Stable Boy by Harmony Stalter Page B

pretty bad, but Josh clamed me down. I fell asleep in his arms. When I woke up, he was gone.”
                  “Gone!” she interrupted.
                  “Not, gone, gone, just not in the bed. He was outside. I went up stairs to shower and get dressed. When I came down, he was eating cereal. He told me I called out for John in my sleep. I think it upset him.”
                  “It would have me to, if I had just spent my energy on you.”
                  “I know,” I said. “I apologized for it and told him that I dreamt of John.”
                  “You did?”
                  “Yes.”
                  “How long has it been since that happened?”
                  “Quite some time, but it was odd. John gave me his approval in the dream. I am not sure if it was just my subconscious trying to convince me that what happened was okay or if it was actually a sign.”
                  “Let me ask you this,” Alison said. “Why would it not be okay to start your life again?”
                  “I don’t know the answer to that.”
                  “I think that you are just scared.”
                  “Maybe,” I said.
                  “To me, that is exactly what it sounds like. It sounds like you are scared of loving again, because you are afraid that the memories you had with John will fade away or the love you had with him will no longer matter. It may be that you are afraid of loving someone only to lose them.”
                  “I don’t know. It could be anyone of those things.”
                  “What are your feelings for Josh?”
                  “I like him. I really do. He is nice and seems to really care.”
                  “I know there is something more than that. I saw the way you two looked at each other. I definitely know that he has feelings for you. He can’t take his eyes off of you when you are in the room.”
                  “I don’t know what is there on his part or my part for that matter. Maybe it is just lust.”
                  “Let’s go with that. Say it is lust. I would not blame you in the least bit. He is incredibly hot.”
                  “Is that all you think about?”
                  “Pretty much,” she said, laughing.
                  “You are a dirty, dirty woman.”
                  “I bet he likes it down and dirty.”
                  “Oh my God, Alison,” I said, laughing until tears clouded my vision.
                  “Come on you have to tell me something, anything. Does he look good naked?”
                  “Okay, I will tell you this. All I could think was damn that is one good looking body.”
                  “Finally, a morsel I can hang on to.”
                  “Does your husband know this is all you think about?”
                  “He better, since I wear him out all the time,” she said with a raise of her eyebrows.
                  “Poor Bob,” said shaking my head. “Where do you want to stop before going home?”
                  “I need to finish shopping for tomorrow, but I also want to have lunch or an early dinner. I can bring Bob home something from the diner.”
                  “I told Josh that I was sure that we were going to be gone most of the day so I would bring him home dinner. I asked him what he wanted, but he never told me.”
                  “Is he that mad at you?”
                  “No, it had nothing to do with him being mad.”
                  “Oh, it had something to do with what you were doing this morning.”
                  “Maybe,” I