squeezes my arm tighter. I gotta admit, I donât really mind right now. Still, Iâm eager to change the subject. âSo can I ask you a question, Laney? Since Iâm risking my life, following dicey instructions given to us by a secret society that murdered for profit, do you think you can at least explain to me why this is so important to you?â
âIâll tell you if you tell me why you need the money so bad.â
When I donât answer, she says, âOkay then, let me guess. Gambling debt? Child support payments? No, I know. To pay for rehab for your cereal addiction.â
I try to come up with one of my typical, smart-ass answers, but Iâm too fixated on the darkness to be clever. âThe money is for me.â
She slips her hand out from my arm. âOf course.â Her voice carries an edge now. âI should have guessed. Money youâll probably blow on vodka and girls.â
âVodka? Money Iâll probably blow on rent and ramen.â
Her squinty eyes travel up and down me. âWhat do you mean?â
âNot everyone has a mommy and daddy to take care of them, Laney. You know the deal. Once you graduate, youâre done at Singer. My free ride is over the second they hand me my diploma. I have no family to go back to and Iâm not going to college. Iâll be homeless again. Did you ever think of that? Because I think about it every day.â
âOh ⦠â
I turn and walk ahead so I donât have to face her pity eyes.
âMom and Dad would help,â she blurts out, behind me. âOr maybe the school couldââ
âNo.â I spin around. âThe school will forget about me. And you and your parents will forget about me. Just like my father, whoever the hell he was, forgot about me. Just like Gram, who dumped me at Singer and my mother, who forgot me in the closet. I can take care of myself.â
My chest tightens so much it hurts. I donât want to talk about this anymore.
I walk away, but she catches up and touches my sleeve. âWeâll figure something out.â
âThereâs nothing to figure out,â I say. âYou asked what I wanted the money for and I told youâI need to set myself up somewhere until I can find a decent job. Unlike you, when I graduate I donât have a family or a future waiting for me.â
Laney acts like I spit on her. âWhat do you mean you donât have any family? You have a family. Weâre your family.â
âWhat donât you get about this? Itâs not the same for me as it is for you. I was abandoned by my mom, Laney. Your parents may have raised me, but they arenât my real mom and dad.â
âThatâs exactly the same as me,â she snaps.
âWhat are you talking about?â
âIâm adopted. My real mother abandoned me too.â
The words are slow to sink in.
âYouâre adopted? Why didnât I know that?â
Her face tightens. âNobody knows. My parents hide it from everyone. They never even told me. â She stares up at the ceiling and blows out a slow breath. âDo you remember the community service project I spearheaded sophomore year?â
âWhich one? You do more volunteering than United Way.â
âThe blood drive.â
âYeah?â
âWell, my parents came. Of course. To make a long story short, they both donated type O blood.â She rubs the back of her neck and mumbles. âIâm type A.â
I shrug my shoulders.
âGeez, you took biology. Donât you remember anything from the genetics unit? Two type O parents wouldnât have a type A child. Itâs impossible. Thatâs how I figured it out. They lied to me all those years.â
âYouâre kidding? ⦠Well, whatâd they say when you confronted them?â
âThey got all flustered and denied it. Said I was âmistaken.â When I gave them proof,