Paul was kind, and caring; heâd always been there for her, when she was little. No one else had been. Not her father, whom sheâd never known. Not her mother, whoâd wandered out of her childrenâs lives like a wisp of smoke.
And not Avery. God, certainly not Avery.
Stephanie put her back to the window and looked down blindly into the cup of rapidly cooling coffee cradled between her palms. Avery, with his talk of being the father sheâd never had. With his compassionate giftsâthe food basket on Thanksgiving, the visits to the specialists for Paul, the big box of books sheâd hungered for but couldnât afford to buy. And then the greatest gift of all, the one sheâd believed would be the start of a better life, for her and for Paulâ¦a yearâs tuition for Miss Carolâs Secretarial School.
âItâs too much, Mr. Willingham,â Stephanie had said. âI canât let you do this.â
âSure you can, darlinâ.â Avery had put a beefy arm around her shoulders in fatherly fashion. âYou learn to type, take dictation, anâ Iâll give you a job, workinâ for me.â
Working for him, Stephanie thought, and shuddered.
Oh, how heâd hooked her. Set out a lure she couldnât resist and reeled her in like a fish all ready for the skillet.
How could she have been so naive? So stupid? So pathetically, painfully dumb?
Not that the answers mattered anymore. It was true, fate had intervened. Paul had become more and more withdrawn but still, it was she whoâd agreed to make a contract with the devil.
There was no one to blame but herselfâ¦
Just as she was to blame for what had happened two weeks ago, on what should have been a pleasant, peaceful Sunday afternoon.
Stephanie shut her eyes against the humiliating memory. That sheâd let a stranger do those things to herâthat sheâd let any man do those things to herâwas inconceivable. None of it made sense. She knew what men were and what they wanted. What they always wanted, whether they were old and fat, like Avery, or young and handsome, like David Chambers.
Sex. That was what men wanted. And sex wasâit wasâ¦
Stephanie shuddered again, despite the warmth of the morning sun on her shoulders. Sweat. Grasping hands. Hot breath on your face and wet lips smothering you, and the feel of bile rising in the back of your throatâ¦
Except, it hadnât been like that with David. When heâd kissed her. Touched her. Cupped her breast and made her moan. She could still remember the taste of him, the feel of his mouth, warm against hers, his kiss hinting at pleasures sheâd never imaginedâ¦
âMissus Willingham?â
Stephanie spun around. Mrs. Cross stood in the doorway. The straw hat she wore for marketing days was on her head; her suitcase was in her hand.
âIâm leavinâ,â she said coldly. âThought Iâd let you know.â
Stephanie nodded. âI understand. Iâm sorry I havenât been able to pay you the last few weeks, butââ
âWouldnât stay under this roof, money or no money,â the housekeeper said. âTown knows what you are now, missus, what with Mr. Avery fixinâ things for all to see.â
Coffee sloshed over the rim of Stephanieâs cup and onto her hand, but she didnât so much as blink.
âIâll send you a check for what I owe you, Mrs. Cross.â Her voice was clear and steady. Sheâd be damnedâ damned âif sheâd break down now. âYou may have to wait for your money, but youâll get it all, I promise.â
âDonât want nothinâ from you, missus.â
Mrs. Cross turned on her heel and marched off. Stephanie didnât move as she listened to the housekeeperâs footsteps stomp the length of the marbled hall, but after the front door slammed shut, she pulled a chair out from the table and sank