“Don’t tell anyone please, Drake. I only told my parents I’d do my two years here so then I could go to art school. This is what I planned to do before any of this.”
When we get back to the hospital , I give both Drake and Charlotte hugs, but tell them to go off and enjoy the night. I make my way to Jake’s room and I find Alec in there. “Jake, man, I don’t know what’s going to happen with Becca. You and Keegan are my friends but she’s my sister. I won’t make the same mistake again. I will protect her above all. So remember that.”
I make a loud noise as I open the door they both look at me and I just smile. “Hey , Alec, what are you still doing here?” It’s late and he’s usually gone by this time.
“I was waiting for you , Becca. Where did you go?” I walk up and give him a hug, squeezing him tightly.
“Went for a run.” I started running again after the accident to clear my head so he’s not going to question me. “Well , I will let you two hang out. I’ll see you in the morning.”
As soon as Alec is out the door Jake is moving over so I can climb in with him. “They told me I could leave tomorrow morning.”
I look to Jake and give him the biggest smile I can. “Jake, that’s great! I can’t wait to get back to the dorms.” He looks saddened by my excitement.
“I’m not going back to the dorms, not yet anyway. I will stay with Alec for a bit. Easier to have everything I need like an adjoining bathroom and my own shower.” I didn’t expect to have to go back to my brother’s yet. Charlotte is staying in my room, not that I wouldn’t just room with Jake. “I will still see you all the time.” Just like that, my heart drops and my whole body goes tense. I look to him for clarification, anything to tell me he’s not saying what I think is.
He doesn’t say anything else he just looks at me. I give him a hug and kiss his cheek , holding in every tear that wants to erupt from my body. “I’ll see you later Jake.” I go to walk away and he tries to grab for me. “I better get home, it’s getting late. I have classes in the morning. When you get out, let me know if you need any help.” I turn my back to Jake and the tears begin to fall.
“Becca, please just stay, just for tonight.” Those words break me. He’s ending this. I don’t know what changed between our last talk and now but he’s made up his mind.
“No, Jacob, I need to go home. One more night won’t change this. It won’t make this feel any less than it does now. Right now, it’s killing me so thanks but no thanks. Goodbye.” With that, I’m out of the door and running down the halls, trying to get as far away from this place as possible.
I get outside and call a cab. While I wait , I replay things over and over, trying to figure out if I was misunderstanding Jake. He doesn’t want you to stay with him, Becca. The cab pulls up and I hop in without worrying about it. I am trying to keep it together the entire way home to my dorm, alone. As soon as we pull up, I toss some money on the seat and take off to my room. I rush past Jake’s door and slam mine, causing the wall to shake. I peel off all my clothing, trying to get the smell of Jake off of me. I pull my PJs on and don’t bother locking my door. I wish whomever it was that wants to hurt me would just do it already. I’m not playing this game anymore. I climb into my bed and fall into a sleep I hope I never wake from.
Trees, dirt, and the smell of burnt rubber begin to fill my head. My eyes blink open and I see my surroundings. I’m on the road where I was just a few short weeks ago. I see the car mangled and the air is filled with silence. “Becky.” I turn to see both Dillon and Michael standing there staring at me. Dillon looks like he did before we started dating. He appears normal.
“What’s happening?” I look to Michael , who is now walking towards me.
“Bec, this is what you do.” I’m confused and I’m sure he can tell