Free Finding Cait by Sarah White Page A

best approach.  If they couldn’t
tell me about it maybe they had figured out themselves that they couldn’t work
out, but deep in my heart I knew it wasn’t true.  Some love is quick and
extinguishes fast while their love will forever keep burning.  It didn’t
take long to realize what a mistake we all had made.
    Matt had acted at
first like he didn’t care what she had been up to, but I know that he needs to
hear about her each time he calls.  I no longer try to work it in to the
conversation, instead I have just learned to come right out and say her name
giving him as many details as I can about where her life is taking her. 
Shortly after Elliot had the affair Matt had called me and I told him the
news.  He acted indifferent about it but I knew it was his chance to
rekindle what was started so long ago.  I finally came right out and told him
that he had waited long enough and he needed to make things right between the
two of them.  When he didn’t deny it I knew I was right and begged him to
please tell her how he felt.  He ended the call to with me by saying that
something are better left they way they are and that he had no life at home to
offer her. 
        
Cait was much better at pretending to not still care about him.  We would
talk for hours on the phone not once mentioning him and she would never ask how
he was doing or where he was at.  The only time she
brought him up was on the night when the news had covered the story that a
large group of Marines had been killed just outside of the war zone as they
slept in their barracks.  The first phone call that night had been from
Matt, letting me know he was ok but he had to hurry off the phone so other
Marines could call home. The next call was Cait.  When I heard her voice I
knew what she needed to know so I told her he was fine and she whispered thank
you and hung up quickly as I heard Elliot enter the room on her end. 
        
My death is going to be hard on them both and I need to stop covering for them
while I watch their lives spiral downward.  When I die they will no longer
be connected, I won’t be there to keep them updated on what they have been
doing.  This is the last chance I have at forcing them to acknowledge what
has been there since that night on the beach and I pray that this time they
don’t fuck it up on my behalf.

 
    Chapter 17
    Cait
        
  When I am sure Court is far enough down the hall to not hear I whisper
to Matt, “Flowers, huh?”
        
“Of all the things I said about you that is what you want to ask me about?” he
asks tilting his head playfully to the side as he leans in closer.  My
heart is pounding so fast I am sure he can see it as my face flushes.  We
sit in the silence with his question hanging in the air between is.
        
Cat and Mouse is what he is offering but I won’t take the bait.  Before
last night there was a clear line drawn in the sand, him on one side and me on
the other.  We kept our distance and never complimented each other on
anything.  For years we have kept the conversation on the level of
friendship and now I sit speechless, finding myself in the place I wanted to be
all of those years ago.  Now it is too late, the feeling of doom and loss
well up in my chest as I look into his eyes and know that he will leave me too
so I need to keep my resolve to leave here first.  I push away from the
table and make my way down the hall without a backwards glance.
        
When I finish getting dressed I walk out to the living room and take a seat on
the couch.  Matt is in the shower and Court is in her room.  Candy
knocks on the door and I let her in.  She smiles at me kindly and we
exchange pained looks as we introduce ourselves and she asks me how Court is
doing.
        
“She is tired I think, but seems to be in good spirits given the
circumstances.” I say to her.
        
“She will get more tired so if there are things that need to be settled you
guys should