today.”
All I can do is nod. He stands up. “Okay, well the nurse will be in to prep you. We can take the implant out right here, then I’ll have them bring in the portable ultrasound.”
Again I nod, that really must be all my body is letting me do. I must look like a fucking bobble head.
Once he walks out of the room, Sly wraps me up in a hug. The dam breaks and I start sobbing. He just keeps stroking my hair saying, “Shh, shh, shh, shh. It’s going to be okay. Whatever you decide, we’re behind you.”
I look up at him. “Sly, you don’t have to stay. You didn’t sign up for this much crazy.”
He smirks. “No, I didn’t, but this is just an added bonus.” He raises his eyebrows. “Here, the nurse said to use this.” He hands me the small sheet. “I don’t know what you’re going to do with a sheet that small, but whatever.”
“I guess you get to see how things work in here today after all,” I say softly, trying to lighten the mood, but it’s not working for me.
I slip off my pants and underwear, sliding back up on the table.
Sly looks at me. “So what are they going to do?”
“Well, it only took a second to put this thing in, so it’ll probably take a second to pull out.”
A soft knock on the door alerts me that the doctor is coming in. He and his nurse come in with the ultrasound machine. He sits down on the stool. “Okay, Kara, slide down for me.” He places my feet in the stirrups.
Sly is standing next to my head and is squeezing my hand. I would say holding, but he’s squeezing.
“Sly, you can ease up a little.”
I feel the little pinch from the removal. “Okay, that’s out. Now, let’s see what we can see.”
He pulls out the vaginal ultrasound wand and Sly’s eyes bug out. “What in the hell is that?”
The doctor laughs. “Son, I’ve been doing this for twenty years. That reaction never gets old. She more than likely isn’t far enough along to see the fetus in a traditional ultrasound, so we use a vaginal one this early. Most men get a little uncomfortable when I bring it out.”
Sly looks at me. “Are you okay with that thing? I mean I know I’m big, but that damn thing is huge.”
I shake my head. “Yes. I’ve had one done before for other reasons.”
The doctor inserts the wand and moves it around. “Okay, so you’re almost five weeks. Like I said, it’s still pretty early, but it’s there. I don’t see any problems from the implant so everything should be good.” He turns the sound on and I hear a steady thump. “That’s a good heartbeat right there.” He clicks some stuff on the screen and takes out the wand. “I’ll print these out for you.”
He prints them out and hands them to me and I start crying.
Dr. Coleman hugs me and rubs my back. “Kara, I know this isn’t what you planned and I’m fairly certain it’s not with the person you wanted it to be, but it’s all going to be okay. You’re a grown, intelligent woman, you know your options so call my office when you decide. If you want to keep the baby, we’ll see you in a month. If you have any questions or concerns, you call me.”
He leaves the room for me to get dressed. Sly swallows hard. “So this is Drake’s baby?”
I nod. “Yeah.” I shake my head. “He just keeps fucking with my life.” I stand up, not caring that I don’t have pants on. “He took this joy away from me. The joy of finding out I was pregnant, by a man who loved me. I want kids, I want kids so bad.”
Sly stops me. “Hey, calm down, this isn’t good for the baby. Don’t let him take this away from you. This is yours, you be happy and have that baby.”
“That’s easy to say, Sly. He’ll never leave me alone once he finds out I’m pregnant. I can’t share this baby with him. He’s dangerous.”
Sly shrugs. “So tell him it’s not his.”
I shake my head. “He’ll know.”
“No, he won’t, we’ll say it’s mine. It’s not like you are going to have a meter on the side of