kiss on the young womanâs temple. âHi, sweetheart.â
Carolâs heart squeezed. Jamesâ¦it had been so long since sheâd heard his voice, sheâd almost forgotten what it sounded like. Music to her heart.
âHappy Valentineâs Day,â he said, then slid a small gift box across the table.
Carol remembered how her pulse had skipped higher at the size of the box, thinkingâhopingâit contained a ring. She had opened the box with shaking fingers, and although her heart had dropped in disappointment at the sight of silver-and-emerald earrings, she had pulled a bright smile out of thin air and gushed over the thoughtful present.
âEmeralds,â he said, âare the sign of a successful love.â
She put the earrings on and leaned forward to thank him with a kiss. After they ordered drinks, she slipped her gift for him out of herpurse. âHappy Valentineâs Day,â she said, pushing it toward him.
Carol watched her younger self, her stomach taut with nerves.
James opened the box and seemed surprised. âA ring? I love it, darling.â He removed the chunky horseshoe ring with small diamonds from its case and slipped it on his finger.
Carol was pleased that it looked classy, yet masculine on his hand.
âThank you,â he said, then leaned forward for another kiss.
She shifted nervously on her chair. âActually, itâs not just a ring.â
Jamesâs eyebrows shot up. âOh?â
âActuallyâ¦I was hopingâ¦that is, I was wonderingâ¦â
âYes? What is it, dear?â
âJamesâ¦will you marry me?â
Watching the scene unfold, Carol emitted a mournful sound. She knew too well what was coming next.
James dropped his gaze, then took his time lifting his glass for a drink. Finally, he used his napkin to wipe the perspiration from hisforehead. She noticed his pallor had gone gray.
âJames?â Carol prompted. âIs something wrong?â
He reached across the table to clasp her hand. âNo. I meanâ¦yes. Iâve wanted to tell you something, but the timing never seemed right.â
Carol remembered that at this point, her first worry had been that James was seriously ill. How naive sheâd been.
âWhatever it is,â she said, âtell me now.â
âThis isnât easy to say, butâ¦Iâve been spending time with another woman, andâ¦sheâs going to have my baby.â
Carol watched her younger self, the myriad of emotions that played over her faceâdisbelief, shock, hurt, anger. She jerked her hand from his as if sheâd been burned. âYouâre lying.â
James drained his drink, then set the glass on the table with a thud. âIâm sorry, but I want to do the right thing. She and I are getting married. See you around.â Then he got up and walked out of the frame.
Carol had always wondered what she mustâve looked like that night to other dinersâ¦sitting there dressed up, wearing the earrings James had just given her, her face a mask of incredulity. Now she knew. She looked as if sheâd been punched in the stomach, or as if she expected James to come back and announce that heâd been playing a practical joke. In fact, sheâd sat there and ordered and eaten a meal by herself, just in case James did return.
He hadnât, of course.
Carolâs cheeks felt wet, and she realized she was crying. âOther than losing my parents, that was the worst night of my life.â
âI know,â Gabrielle said quietly. âAnd Iâm sorry to make you relive it. But you need to see that you are not to blame for what James did. His irresponsible and hurtful behavior is his to own. You did nothing wrong.â
âI trusted him,â Carol said. âThat was wrong.â
âTrusting James was misguided,â Gabrielle corrected, âbut it wasnât wrong. Itâs never wrong to love.