that's exactly how I feel about the
money, time is more precious than money and I have tons of it. I want to spend
it on you. In fact, I'm getting you your own cards and your own account, that
way you don't have to wait for me to do anything if you see something you want
you can just buy it." And I can erase the picture of you in want and going
without from my mind.
"I don't know what to say, this is all so...so, I
don't know, is this a dream?"
"No dream baby, we're both just very lucky to
have found each other." She makes it so easy, I just want to love this
girl with everything I’ve got. I hope I don't fuck this up I'm not sure if I
should get her a therapist. How much damage had been done to her psyche? She
seems so well rounded and even keeled for someone who's lived with a virtual
sociopath her entire life.
I'll keep an eye out for the next couple of weeks at
least and if I notice anything off I'll handle it. Her life had been
drastically changed overnight I'd literally swooped in and taken her over. I
have to be sure not to overcrowd her, she already had one overbearing male
figure in her life she didn't need another. But the way I felt about her, I
know it's going to be tough keeping myself in check.
I do want to take her over, dominate. I have this
uncontrollable need to be a part of every aspect of her life. Maybe because I
know she'd been hurt by her father for so long, I don't know. What I do know is
that no one else has ever made me feel this possessive. Like I needed to own
her and that just sounds so sick. But it’s the truth, whether it’s her
upbringing, her youth, or that innocent air about her I just know she makes me
want to take over every aspect of her existence ; like
I have to stand between her and the rest of the world.
With Lynn and anyone else that came before her we
spent as much time apart as we did together. In fact maybe more, but the
thought of letting her out of my sight fills me with distaste. If I had my way
she would never spend another night out of my arms. Which might be difficult
since she had school and I sometimes travelled for business, sometimes out of
the country, I’m going to have to figure something out because I’m pretty sure
that was out.
Fuck, I can't think about that right now, I'm just
making myself crazy.
"Hey, isn't school almost out for the
summer?"
"Yep, just a few more weeks and it's summer
vacation."
"What do you usually do on breaks?"
"Umm nothing?"
"You never went anywhere, did anything with
friends, go to the beach, stuff like that?"
"I don't really have any friends Gideon."
She hung her head as if in shame, I felt my ire rise once again.
"Well you do now Blossom, you have me." I
teased her out of the funk I sensed was coming on again. Fucking Cliff Sanders ; what an utter and complete asshole, if I hadn't hated him
before I would now.
What seventeen, almost eighteen-year old girl didn't
need friends? The more I learned about her life with him, the more convinced I
became that I'd done the right thing by taking her out of there.
"Let me know when your classes end. We need to
make plans, can't have you sitting around here all summer now can we?"
"Really, where would we go?" Her eyes lit up
and she bounced in my lap making me laugh and groan at the same time.
I've been fighting a hard on ever since she climbed
into my lap. I don't want to scare her half to death but neither did I want
there to be any uneasiness between us. She’s going to learn about my body’s
reaction to hers sooner or later. There’s no way to keep it hidden for the next
three months.
I stole a kiss to distract her from my rod poking into
her thigh, soft gentle kisses no tongue as yet, I didn't want to push my luck.
Although I'd promised myself not to make complete love
to her until she was older, I knew it was unrealistic to think that I could lie
next to her every night and not touch her. I knew there was going to be a lot
of touching for the next three months.
That