And it is about more than just sex, much more, but we canât let it grow into anything dangerous. You just have to understand that this can never be anything other than what we had the other night, no matter how amazing it was. If you can accept that, then we can carry on.â
âAs what? Lovers?â
He shrugged. âIf you like. Lovers, friends. It would give us someone to do things withâhave dinner, go to the cinema, chill out in front of the tellyâjust ordinary stuff, but not alone. Iâm sick of being alone, Daisy, of having no one to share things with, nobody to tell a joke to or unload on at the end of a rough day. And I would very, very much like to do that with you, but itâs your call. If you tell me to go to hell, Iâll quite understand, and you donât need to be afraid that itâll affect our relationship at work. I wouldnât do that to you.â
She held his eyes, saw the regret, the need, the sadness, and felt her eyes fill. She was lonely, too, and having someone to share the little things with would be wonderful.
And even though she knew it was the stupidest thing in the world, the last thing she should be doing, she nodded.
âOK. But only so long as Florence is right out of the picture. I canât lose my heart to another little girl, Ben. Iâve done it before, and I swore never again. Mikeâs girls came to us every other weekend, and for holidays. And when he went back to his ex, I lost contact with them. And I vowed never againânot a man with children.â
âOh, Daisy, Iâm sorry,â he said softly. He could see the hurt in her eyes, the wariness, the soul-deep pain the breakup had caused her. âI had no idea you were in so deep.â
âOh, yeah,â she said with a brittle laugh. âSo if weâre going to do this, well, just keep her away from me, please.â
âI will. Soâdo we have a deal?â
âWhatâfun dates, hot sex and no complications?â
He winced. âDaisy, donât,â he said softly, but she wasnât in the mood to be toyed with.
âItâs the truth, Ben. If we canât have anything else, then letâs for Godâs sake have that.â
âOK,â he said softly, after a silence that had stretched on altogether too long. âFun dates, hot sex and no complications. And one more rule. No using the âLâ word.â
She swallowed, nodded, then tried to smile. âDone,â she said. âSoâis eating a complication, or a fun date? Because Iâm starving and that casserole must be warmed through by now.â
He started to laugh, then pulled her gently into his arms and hugged her close. âOh, Daisy. Iâm starving, too, and it smells fantastic. Actually, Iâve got an idea. Can we take it with us next door? Iâve got one or two things I have to do, and Iâve got a nice bottle of wine in the fridge and half an apple pie.â
âHome-made?â
He winced. âYes. By me and Florence, so itâs not amazingly elegant, but itâs tasty.â
She smiled at him. âTasty sounds good. Lead the way.â
They ended up in his bed.
Not then, not until theyâd eaten the casserole on their knees in the sitting roomâthe only room apart from his bedroom that was in any way in order, if you didnât count the dangling ceiling paper.
He opened the wine heâd had chilling and poured it into champagne flutes, âAll I seem to have left,â he told her wryly, and they toasted his house, and the plumberâs health, which made her laugh.
And then, when theyâd eaten her casserole and the endearingly inelegant and tasty apple pie, he pulled her to her feet.
âCome to bed,â he said softly, and her breath lodged in her throat as she followed him up the stairs and into his room. He undressed her slowly, his hands sure and gentle, but then she met his eyes and