entire project.
On Tuesday, I left three more messages, of escalating sharpness.
âLook, will one of you lazy bastards just ring me?â
On Wednesday, I decided I had to call Phoebe.
âI had such a marvelous time on Friday,â she said happily. âHonorâs a fascinating girl, donât you think? And Matthewâs such a nice man when you draw him out. I can see exactly why you love him.â
âI need to speak to one of your sons,â I said.
âWhich one?â
âEither. Iâve left about a million messages.â
Phoebe chuckled. âArenât they dreadful? Iâll put a note through the door. What shall I say itâs about?â
âOh, nothingâI mean, I canât really explain.â I couldnât bring myself to tell Phoebe that I was about to break my promise and admit them into their motherâs plan. âBeg them to ring me. Give them my work number if you have to.â
On Wednesday, I met Annabel for supper. We went to our usual cheerful Italian place in Camden Town, to eat serious portions of spaghetti carbonara and drink a bottle of red wine. We never brought our boyfriends here. We wanted to wear comfortable clothes and no lipstick.
Annabel looked beautiful in her tight black jersey and prim gray skirt, and the waiters were all over her (waiters and policemen always love Annabel). She was in no mood to appreciate it, however. Her latest crushâa senior colleague at the bankâhad done what they all seemed to do, and waltzed off with some bimbo from a catering firm.
âItâs only one date,â I said, trying to be encouraging. âHeâll get tired of her as soon as he realizes how thick she is.â
Annabel shook her glossy blonde head disconsolately. âSheâs not thick. She has a degree in Russian. I know what will happen. Iâve seen it a hundred times. Heâll fall in love with her, and theyâll have a lovely posh wedding and three children. Itâs not fair. Why did I waste my time taking exams? I should have done directorsâ lunches.â
âCome on, woman. Pull yourself together. Youâre successful and brilliant. Youâre the head of arbitrage, for heavenâs sake.â
She was mildly reproachful. âYou donât have the slightest idea what I do.â
I pretended I hadnât heard, in case she started explaining. âThere are loads of men out there who actively like a successful woman,â I said, knowing this wasnât true.
âI really thought Miles was one of them. I wish Iâd known not to be
clever in front of him. Perhaps Iâll be more helpless next time Iâm alone with him.â
âSpare a kipper, guv!â
Annabel relaxed into a laugh. âYou can afford to be politically correct, because youâve got Matthew. Where is he tonight, by the way?â
âDinner with clientsâthe poor man has been working far too hard lately. I think thereâs some sort of important job, which has implications for his partnership. It means Iâm seeing a lot less of him.â
Annabel said, âPoor you.â
âDonât be too sorry for me. You know how his ruthless ambition turns me on.â Under the table, my mobile phone bleeped in my handbag. âSorry,â I said. We usually switched our phones off when we met, but I was still chasing those boys.
It was Phoebe. âIâve got Fritz,â she said. âIâm actually holding his arm so he canât get away. Talk to Cassie, darling.â
Fritz took the phone. âOkay, Grimble, here I am.â
âAt lastâdo you know how many messages Iâve left?â
âYes, and Iâm sorry. But Iâve been going through a spot of emotional turbulence.â
I longed to know if this had anything to do with Madeleine, but could hardly bring her up when Phoebe and Annabel were listening at either end. âI really donât want
Eugene Walter as told to Katherine Clark