Free Chasing the Wild Sparks by Ren Alexander

like Finn Wilder’s dirty, little secret.
     
     

 
    CHAP TER 5
     
     
     
    After Finn signs off, I change into one of my nightshirts, knowing that he should be home soon. I take out my ponytail and brush my hair and teeth. I really should have brought something sexier to wear than wearing one of my old, faded T-shirts. If sex is all he wants from me, then he might not even care if I were wearing a damned trash bag. My heart aches thinking about him using me like that. I want to believe that he still does love me, if he really ever did at all.
    I find a lighter in his top nightstand drawer and light the four large pillar candles I had bought for his bedroom. I then turn down his bed’s comforter, blanket , and sheet. His iPod is on his dresser and I put his favorite slow Black Veil Brides’ song on repeat.
    Standing at the kitchen counter facing away from the living room, I hear the familiar roar of Finn’s car outside. Instantly, goosebumps spread across my skin, and my nipples promptly harden at his near proximity and impending closeness. Why does my body have to betray me? I still want to be pissed at him for his omission earlier before I let him take me to his room.
    I continue making my list of things to take with me tomorrow. If I forget something that I was supposed to bring, I’ll never hear the end of Rod’s whining.
    The front door opens and I can already smell his cologne, commanding my heart to pound. I have to force myself to stay where I am. I tap my pen against the notepad, frantically trying to think of something else I need to write down; anything to keep me from turning around and running into his arms like the adoring, little girlfriend that I am.
    When I hear his footsteps entering the kitchen behind me, I bite my lip while fighting the intense impulse to turn around. Walking up to me, he wraps one arm around my waist and uses his other hand to sweep my hair off of my shoulder, draping it over the other side. His hand then trails down through my hair down to my chest, his fingers smoothly kneading my breast through my shirt. My eyes unwillingly drift closed as his lips tenderly kiss up my neck. He uses his arm around my waist to pull me closer to him. That’s when I notice he’s wearing his leather riding suit. Oh, shit. We need to talk, but I doubt that’s going to happen now. His lips start gently sucking on my skin and I whimper, “Finn.”
    “Becks,” he whispers, lifting his mouth from my skin only for a second. His lips are relentless. Is he trying to give me a hickey? Everyone will see it tomorrow! I roll my head to discourage the bruising, and he moves to trail his lips across the back of my neck. I finally drop the pen I’m still holding.
    I quietly ask, “I watched you earlier. What’s wrong? You seemed anxious.”
    “I couldn’t wait to get home. I missed you.” He slides his arm lower and tightens his grip around me, pushing me into his hips and his rapidly growing erection.
    “I missed you, too.” His hand moves lower, taking the hem of my shirt and dragging it up over my hips, his skin skimming over mine, causing me to ache for him even more. His touch igniting me, I stutter slightly, “Can I ask you something?”
    “Anything, baby,” he answers between kisses along my neck. Finn holds my shirt with one hand as his other leaves my breast and travels to the waistband of my underwear. He alternates scraping his teeth and licking the nape of my neck. My knees wobble and I put my hands on the edge of the counter to steady myself.
    “Why don’t you want people to know about me?” His hand freezes as his fingers glide between my legs.
    “Why do you think that?” he asks gruffly.
    “You keep me hidden. We’ve been together for three years, but I don’t think any of your coworkers even know you have a girlfriend.” His motionless fingers buried in my pubic hair slowly come back to life and begin to slip inside me. I gasp.
    “It’s none of their business.” His hot