as permission to follow Thomasâ orders. I know they would have stopped me if they had disagreed.â His answer was somewhat comforting. Dad and Juan Carlos werenât speaking to us and apparently werenât even speaking about us, but they did want to see us safe. It was something, at least.
âWell, Uncle Hector, welcome to the family. Looks like we will be seeing a lot of you. I gotta ask, have you ever been to an American football game?â Laughing at his confused expression, I stood to move inside. âLetâs go see Mom and tell her youâre here. Weâre not going to mention anything about this situation, however. Sheâll panic with worry over them. Weâll just say Thomas sent you as a precaution.â
Mom received Hectorâs presence with muted joy. Like me, she was thankful to see a familiar face. Any association with home was welcome. She was putting on a brave front, working to build a new life here, but I knew she missed my father and brothers to the point of pain. I could sometimes hear her crying quietly in her room at night. My biggest source of security growing up was the love my parents had for each other. Even recently, when Dadâs newly inherited role in his familyâs dealings had begun to morph him into a man neither of us understood, she had remained passionately committed to him. Iâd been astonished when she had agreed to leave with me. I knew sheâd been driven by a desire to keep me safe, and by horror at how out of control things had gotten at home. The attack on our house the night we had left had been the final straw for her.
Hector was assigned the small two-room guesthouse to the left of the pool. Before nightfall, he had met the security personnel on duty and had begun to assess their plan and abilities. Mom watched him warily when he was in the house, shooting an anxious, curious glance my way every so often. Thankfully she didnât voice her questions out loud. I wasnât sure I would have known how to answer them. I wouldnât lie to her, but I wanted to keep her as in the dark as possible, at least until she wasnât so emotionally vulnerable.
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The pitch blackness I awoke to did nothing to induce me back to sleep. I was restless and anxious. What was happening at home? How was Thomas handling it? This was the first crisis where I wasnât there. Thomas and I had always ridden these things out together. He called me his sounding board, especially after he had been wounded in January when his jeep had been forced off the dirt road that wound through the arid hills behind our home. Thomas had suffered multiple abrasions and fractures and a head injury that had us fretting over him for months. Dad had been furious, demanding retribution on all real and supposed family enemies. It was the first time I had seen Mom scared of him. It was also the first time I had seen Juan Carlos, eerily calm and collected, taking over the decision-making and keeping things in control until Dad was rational again. At the time, I was glad that heâd been able to diffuse the situation, but his detachment from emotion had frightened me. What was he capable of?
Thinking of Thomas made me sad. I knew heâd always favored Dad, worshipping him with even greater devotion than I did. And Dad had been worthy of devotion; a dedicated husband and father, playful and there for us when we needed him. At least until his brother had been killed, and he had inherited the dark side of the Reyna family business. That responsibility had turned him into someone we no longer recognized, with Mom as his greatest and most broken-hearted victim.
Looks like my run is going to be a long one today, I thought, angrily and silently dressing. Mom had cried herself to sleep again last night, scared of what she did not know. I didnât want my raging thoughts to awaken her now. So I grabbed my bag and quietly let myself out of the house and drove to