wondering if it smelt like that when you lay buried in your coffin. Like his dad. Listening to the coffin lid creak under the weight of the soil. Archer wanted to vomit. The taste of soil filled his mouth, then it slid down the back of his tongue. All Jay was doing was staring. A stare as if he was reading words on Archerâs face.
âLet me go,â Archer pleaded.
âFirst, Iâve got to show you something.â
âI donât want to see it.â
âArcher.â
âDonât say my name. Please, Jay, I havenât hurt you. Donât do anything bad to me, Jay!â The eight-year-old was close to tears. A breeze stirred the leaves into a chuckle. As if the forest would take pleasure in witnessing whatever fate befell Archer. âPlease, Jay. It isnât fair . . .â
âArcher.â
âNo, please donât.â
âIâm going to take you to see your dad.â
This shook Archer. âYou canât; heâs dead. I saw him open the door; then they shot him.â
Jay murmured, âKeep next to me. Donât stop walking.â
Archer looked down at his feet â they were traitors. He hadnât even realized heâd stood up, let alone started walking. Jay led him through the undergrowth.
âYou can see yourself, canât you, Archer?â The voice could have been a whisper of cold air coming from a cave.
Close to panic, Archer snapped, âI donât know what you mean!â
âYou can see yourself coming down the stairs at your house.â
âCourse I canât. Youâre being stupid.â
âYou can see yourself walking down the steps. Youâre wearing a green T-shirt.â
âYouâre making it up.â
âYour mother bought you that T-shirt earlier that morning.â
âYou witch. Youâre trying to scare me.â
Jay continued in the monotone as they walked down a soil bank. âYouâre on the stairs and youâre looking down at your father. Heâs standing in the hallway. Someoneâs banging on the front door.â
âLiar.â
Archer ran down the banking. Heâd had enough of this. What mattered now was to get back to the farm. Only the soft dirt under his feet became hard steps. When he reached the bottom he saw the bushes had gone. He couldnât see Jay. There was no smell of dirt. Instead he could smell the bacon his father had fried.
Archer blinked. Somehow â and he didnât know how it had happened â he was standing in the hallway at the foot of a staircase. He was back in his old home again. He knew his mother was upstairs. Now it was that day again. The one when his fatherâs friends came to call after theyâd discovered the money had vanished. His father had shiny black hair, brushed back from his face. His face was always tanned and he wore a thick gold chain round his neck. âMy freedom ticketâ was how he described it as he fingered the heavy links. Always he looked pleased with himself. Even cocky.
Except today. His face had gone ugly with fear. The knock on the door grew louder.
âArcher, come here, son,â he said. âThatâs it. Donât be scared. Thereâs a good lad.â He tried to smile but his lips curled oddly as if he might start crying. âGo to the door, Archer. Donât open it. Whatever you do, donât unlock it. Just shout through that youâre home with your mother but your dadâs out of town.â
âI want to get Mum the facecloth.â
âLater.â
âHer nose is bleeding.â
âArcher, you little runt, do as I tell you.â Even as he spoke he rubbed his hand against his trouser leg to wipe away the red smear. âTell them, Iâll be back tonight. Iâll phone them then.â Then he said to himself, âSome chance. Iâll be long gone.â
âDadââ
âJust fucking well do it.
Jennifer Teege, Nikola Sellmair