Free Renegade Lady by Emily Minton, Dawn Martens Page A

to hold my pain in.  “Again Jenna, what the fuck are you talking about?”
    “I’m not supposed to tell you, but I’m scared.”
    Anger courses through me.  “What the fuck do you mean, you’re not supposed to tell me?”
    “Gun doesn’t want you to know.  He says you got shit to do, and there’s nothing you can do to help Mindy.”
    Motherfucker!  My Pop is a damn bastard.  “Tell me what’s going on. I thought Mindy was doing okay.”
    Her crying becomes louder before she says.  “I don’t know everything.  I just heard her talking to someone at the funeral home yesterday.  She was planning her own funeral.  Who plans their own funeral?”
    Bile starts to make its way up my throat as I say.  “I don’t know, baby girl.  Knowing Mindy, she’s probably trying to make things easier for you and Chipper.”
    “It doesn’t matter what she does. Nothing’s going to be easy about losing her. I love her so much. I can’t lose her,” she finishes on a whisper. 
    “I know, baby girl.”
    “I’ve been so scared, so afraid, and I needed you really bad, but you never called.  Why didn’t you call, Kidd?”
    I close my eyes again, trying to block out the pain of my own betrayal.  I was so caught up in trying to avoid my feelings for her that I left her alone when she needed me the most.  “I’m sorry, Jenna.  I’ve been busy, but I should’ve made time.”
    I hear murmured voices before she whispers.  “I gotta go. Your Pop’s here.  If he finds out I’m talking to you, he’ll be pissed.”
    She doesn’t even take the time to say goodbye before hanging up.  When I hear the line go dead, I toss the phone on the bed and shout, “Fuck!”
    “Was that Jenna, babe?” Sarah asks quietly. She knows about Jenna.  I couldn’t help talking about my girl.  Most of the time, it’s just me relaying silly shit she’s been doing, but sometimes it’s me telling Sarah how much I miss my baby girl.  I always make sure to tell her that Jenna is like a little sister, but Sarah’s not an ignorant bitch.  She has to know it’s more than that. 
    She hasn’t really said much about Jenna.  In fact, this is the first time she’s ever even said her name, but she knows how Jenna came to the club.  She heard about that shit going down before I even got here.  She also knows how important Jenna is to me and my family. Every time I’ve brought my baby girl up, Sarah just smiles and listens.  But there is something in her eyes, a spark of jealousy that I don’t like. 
    “Yeah, I need to try and finish shit here and get home as soon as I can.” I say, getting up and walking to the door.
    “When it’s time for you to leave, do you think I could come with you?” she asks quietly.
    After hearing Jenna just now, I don’t know if I should bring Sarah home.  There’s just too much shit going on.   If Mindy’s dying, it should be just the family, not some stow away. “I’m not sure that’s a good idea.”
    “Please, Kidd.  I don’t want to be thrown back to these boys here.  You know they won’t go gentle on me.”
    She’s right.  Some of the brothers were pissed that I chose Sarah. They were even madder when I told them I didn’t share.  They’ve been chomping at the bit to get to her, so gentle will be the last thing they’d give her.  “You can come, but you got to know that I’m not sure this thing we got going on will last long after I get home.”
    She shrugs.  “We can just see what happens when we get there.”
    “Yeah, babe,” I say walking out.
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
    CHAPTER Seven
     
    Kidd
     
     
     
    After nearly a year away, I’m finally home, but not because the shit is fixed in Mateland; not even fucking close. That’s a dream that may never come true.  Those fuckers are so screwed up, I’m not sure anyone can fix it.  My only hope is Brew, the current VP, will continue where I left off and get everyone’s ass in